May 1st 2013 *raining *19:23
What happened ? I block him from my friend's list. I dont want him to feel troubled because of giving me the cold shoulder. I know he want to do the best for the both of us-- but still its hurt when we clearly said we would still BE FRIENDS. Its so sad cause I really thought we can still be friends. I was hoping for it but it turn out this way. How you expect me to endure it ? When youre totally ignore me after your start the conversation ? Im a human being not robot. I have feelings too. Are you trying to make me jealous by making her as your 'wife' ? That girl who used to confessed to you.. Its her right ? I know it all. I know--
This is my conclusion for our problem. This is the best. I wont regret cause its my decision. I wont ever regret it. I know you will laugh when youre reading that message. And you might think Im really insane for doing that. This type of love isnt real anyway-- but still I get my hope up for it.
Ahhh ~ Im such a stupid girl.
So that is goodbye. My last calling you by ' Minato ', cause thats where we first had our first conversation.. Its with that name. :')
My last message. Its my last. My very last for you
Thank you.
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Laughs, Alone, Happy ending ?
Assalamualaikum. ;)
Hye, hey !!
Its been a while right ? :3
Well, well ~ I've got so much to say this time. > u <
And I'll write it in malay maybe. Fufufufu ~
Laughs
Time belajar bukan main lagi, tersengguk-sengguk. Tapi bila dah habis kelas. Terus mata tak jadi mengantuk dah. Magic kan ? xDD
Tapi hari ni kan lepas habis kelas, aku langsung tak sentuh buku. (dekat sekolah la)
Rajin tak aku ? Boleh jadi pelajar contoh ke tak ? Ahahaha
Well, well.. Kira tu dah memang rutin harian pelajar la kan ? Kadang-kadang yang straight A's pun boleh jadi macam tu kot. xD
Memang betul la aku cakap.. Best gila petang tadi. Dah la block kelas kitorang tu kosong. And its just 5 of us there. Oh, kalau campur sekali dengan boyfriend 'princess' 6 orang la. Tapi dia pemerhati je.
Kita jadi betul-betul gila-gila tadi. Macam budak 'hilang skru' pun ada jugak. Tapi memang best la. Seriously, the best day ever. Segala stress hilang dengan ketawa je. Hebat kan pelajar-pelajar contoh ni ? Ahahaha
Alone
Nak dijadikan cerita, aku call my mom banyak kali dan perkataan yang keluar sama je iaitu '' lambat lagi ke nak sampai ? '' (ayat itu aku tujukan dekat orang yang datang ambil aku which mean abang aku ) Reply my mom senang je.. '' Tunggu la, kejap lagi sampai la tu. '' Ayat yang selalu sangat aku dengar. And '' sekejap '' tu hampir half an hour tahu tak ?! Nasib baik la aku ni baik hati. Tapi ada la jugak sumpah seranah kau dalam hati. Hahaha
Aku ni bagai nak rak tunggu tak datang datang.. Lepas satu, satu lagu yang aku humming.. Tapi tak muncul-muncul jugak. Ni dah lebih-lebih la ni.. Sejam setengah aku tunggu. Ingat apa ? Aku ni tunggul kayu ? Then, aku dicided la nak solat dulu.. Dah tu tunggu tak sampai-sampai.
Time aku masuk musolla tu terkejut la jugak, bf 'princess' dengan kawan-kawan dia ada kat dalam tu. Tapi aku dengan muka tembok nya masuk. Dalam fikiran ni macam-macam yang terlintas. Huhuhu
Tapi masa aku tengak cari sejadah dan kain sembahyang yang elok tiba-tiba si bf ni menuju ke arah suis yang ada kat sebelaha perempuan ni. Kawan-kawan dia apa lagi kalau tak dengan usikan-usikan bodoh. Tapi apa yang buat aku '' terharu '' dia ' tolong ' bukakan lampu tempat ambil wuduk. Aduh-aduh-- Dalam hati aku '' baik la sangat '' xDD hahaha
Tapi dah dikira baik la tu kan ? Sama ada kebetulan atau memang niat untuk tolong buka lampu tu hanya Allah la yang tahu. Apa-apapun terima kasih la banyak-banyak. :)
Happy ending ?
Then lepas siap aku solat. Cepat-cepat aku keluar. Bukan apa-- kot-kot abang aku dah sampai. Tapi bila aku keluar je satu pun takde. Frust gila kot ?! Then aku masuk dalam sekolah then cari public phone yang Amani guna tadi, sebab dekat situ dia letak balik duit syiling yang dia ambil tu. Aku guna la duit tu untuk call my mom lagi. Then dad aku jawab, dia cakap tunggu dia la yang datang ambil. Dia dah dekat area tu dah.
Then aku lega la sikit. At least ada yang nak datang ambil kan ?
Tapi kan.. Tak sampai 10 minit abang aku sampai.. =w= Aku yang ' pendiam ' ni ikut aje la.
Then guess what ? Aku naik kereta ' Abang Jimmy ' HAHAHAHA
Tiba-tiba jadi abang pasal ? xDD
Well , dia ni dulu selalu sangat usik aku. Tapi tu dulu la kan. :3
Sekarang dia dah ada tunang dah and dia ada seorang lagi kawan yang selalu usik aku tapi tak berapa nak ingat la.. Ye la kan-- adengan usik-mengusik ni masa aku umur 6 tahun kalau aku tak silap la. x]
Tapi dia tetap cool la dari dulu sampai sekarang tak berubah langsung dengan sikap gila-gila dia. And dia cakap.. Dia mintak maaf sebab pasal tolong dia abang aku ambil aku lewat. Dia cakap lagi abang aku tak salah dia yang salah sebab terlalu leka dengan kerja yang diaorang buat dia tak ingat. ( kerja tu dok bersihkan rumah tinggal dia je )
Hahaha.. Pape pon dah kira sweet la tu kan ? xD
At least ada jugak aku dengar perkataan maaf sebab ambil lewat. Hehehe
#unforgettablemoment ~
Hye, hey !!
Its been a while right ? :3
Well, well ~ I've got so much to say this time. > u <
And I'll write it in malay maybe. Fufufufu ~
Laughs
Time belajar bukan main lagi, tersengguk-sengguk. Tapi bila dah habis kelas. Terus mata tak jadi mengantuk dah. Magic kan ? xDD
Tapi hari ni kan lepas habis kelas, aku langsung tak sentuh buku. (dekat sekolah la)
Rajin tak aku ? Boleh jadi pelajar contoh ke tak ? Ahahaha
Well, well.. Kira tu dah memang rutin harian pelajar la kan ? Kadang-kadang yang straight A's pun boleh jadi macam tu kot. xD
Memang betul la aku cakap.. Best gila petang tadi. Dah la block kelas kitorang tu kosong. And its just 5 of us there. Oh, kalau campur sekali dengan boyfriend 'princess' 6 orang la. Tapi dia pemerhati je.
Kita jadi betul-betul gila-gila tadi. Macam budak 'hilang skru' pun ada jugak. Tapi memang best la. Seriously, the best day ever. Segala stress hilang dengan ketawa je. Hebat kan pelajar-pelajar contoh ni ? Ahahaha
Alone
Nak dijadikan cerita, aku call my mom banyak kali dan perkataan yang keluar sama je iaitu '' lambat lagi ke nak sampai ? '' (ayat itu aku tujukan dekat orang yang datang ambil aku which mean abang aku ) Reply my mom senang je.. '' Tunggu la, kejap lagi sampai la tu. '' Ayat yang selalu sangat aku dengar. And '' sekejap '' tu hampir half an hour tahu tak ?! Nasib baik la aku ni baik hati. Tapi ada la jugak sumpah seranah kau dalam hati. Hahaha
Aku ni bagai nak rak tunggu tak datang datang.. Lepas satu, satu lagu yang aku humming.. Tapi tak muncul-muncul jugak. Ni dah lebih-lebih la ni.. Sejam setengah aku tunggu. Ingat apa ? Aku ni tunggul kayu ? Then, aku dicided la nak solat dulu.. Dah tu tunggu tak sampai-sampai.
Time aku masuk musolla tu terkejut la jugak, bf 'princess' dengan kawan-kawan dia ada kat dalam tu. Tapi aku dengan muka tembok nya masuk. Dalam fikiran ni macam-macam yang terlintas. Huhuhu
Tapi masa aku tengak cari sejadah dan kain sembahyang yang elok tiba-tiba si bf ni menuju ke arah suis yang ada kat sebelaha perempuan ni. Kawan-kawan dia apa lagi kalau tak dengan usikan-usikan bodoh. Tapi apa yang buat aku '' terharu '' dia ' tolong ' bukakan lampu tempat ambil wuduk. Aduh-aduh-- Dalam hati aku '' baik la sangat '' xDD hahaha
Tapi dah dikira baik la tu kan ? Sama ada kebetulan atau memang niat untuk tolong buka lampu tu hanya Allah la yang tahu. Apa-apapun terima kasih la banyak-banyak. :)
Happy ending ?
Then lepas siap aku solat. Cepat-cepat aku keluar. Bukan apa-- kot-kot abang aku dah sampai. Tapi bila aku keluar je satu pun takde. Frust gila kot ?! Then aku masuk dalam sekolah then cari public phone yang Amani guna tadi, sebab dekat situ dia letak balik duit syiling yang dia ambil tu. Aku guna la duit tu untuk call my mom lagi. Then dad aku jawab, dia cakap tunggu dia la yang datang ambil. Dia dah dekat area tu dah.
Then aku lega la sikit. At least ada yang nak datang ambil kan ?
Tapi kan.. Tak sampai 10 minit abang aku sampai.. =w= Aku yang ' pendiam ' ni ikut aje la.
Then guess what ? Aku naik kereta ' Abang Jimmy ' HAHAHAHA
Tiba-tiba jadi abang pasal ? xDD
Well , dia ni dulu selalu sangat usik aku. Tapi tu dulu la kan. :3
Sekarang dia dah ada tunang dah and dia ada seorang lagi kawan yang selalu usik aku tapi tak berapa nak ingat la.. Ye la kan-- adengan usik-mengusik ni masa aku umur 6 tahun kalau aku tak silap la. x]
Tapi dia tetap cool la dari dulu sampai sekarang tak berubah langsung dengan sikap gila-gila dia. And dia cakap.. Dia mintak maaf sebab pasal tolong dia abang aku ambil aku lewat. Dia cakap lagi abang aku tak salah dia yang salah sebab terlalu leka dengan kerja yang diaorang buat dia tak ingat. ( kerja tu dok bersihkan rumah tinggal dia je )
Hahaha.. Pape pon dah kira sweet la tu kan ? xD
At least ada jugak aku dengar perkataan maaf sebab ambil lewat. Hehehe
#unforgettablemoment ~
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Thinking of you
Bila aku pergi tempat jauh-jauh (dalam tahun ni). Aku mesti terfikir dekat dia. Which I called Mr. Idiot. Aku tertanya-tanya.
" Kenapa aku mesti fikir tentang dia ? Why him ? Aku dah takde kaitan dengan dia lagi. "
Hati pula terdetik. " Do I still love him ? Tak, tak.. Our relation is not the real one. Cinta alam maya je kan. "
Then again.. Fikiran aku akan flashback balik detik-detik indah bersama. Cee.. Indah la sangat.
Daripada dia minta aku jadi girlfriend dia sampai our breaking up moment. Tapi bukan semua yang aku ingat. Just the sweet moment ( ? ) :)
Hairan, hairan
Kenapa rasa bersalah tiba-tiba bila aku pergi somewhere far from my house ? Is this happened because of what I did to him last year ? Leaving him in doubt, waiting for me to reply his chat ? Leaving him out without telling him where I'd go ? Letting him think that I suddently gave him a cold shoulder ? My Idiot.. There's no such thing. I left you without a word because I want to see your reaction. I never thought you would break our relation that easily. I never ever thought that would happened. :')
I thought you would worried if something bad happened to me. Tapi sangkaan aku meleset sama sekali. Dia tak fikir panjang. Dia buat kesimpulan dia sendiri, yang mengatakan aku tinggal dia dia dengan sengaja. Aku tahu semua tu salah aku. Aku sepatutnya bagi tahu dia sebelum aku pergi. Aku tahu aku tak fikir panjang. But people do mistakes right ? Im not an angel who didnt do wrong. I am not an angel. Aku hanya manusia biasa yang tak boleh predict masa depan. Aku tak boleh buat semua tu.
Sampai bila ?
Sampai bila aku nak mengharapkan yang tak pasti ? Bukan ke aku sepatutnya enjoy life aku sekarang ? Aku dah tak perlu buat benda yang aku tak nak. Dia bukan boleh bagi aku kebahagian yang aku cari. ( Duhh-- cakap macam dia la jodoh aku )
He's my nobody. My nobody, I repeat.
" Kenapa aku mesti fikir tentang dia ? Why him ? Aku dah takde kaitan dengan dia lagi. "
Hati pula terdetik. " Do I still love him ? Tak, tak.. Our relation is not the real one. Cinta alam maya je kan. "
Then again.. Fikiran aku akan flashback balik detik-detik indah bersama. Cee.. Indah la sangat.
Daripada dia minta aku jadi girlfriend dia sampai our breaking up moment. Tapi bukan semua yang aku ingat. Just the sweet moment ( ? ) :)
Hairan, hairan
Kenapa rasa bersalah tiba-tiba bila aku pergi somewhere far from my house ? Is this happened because of what I did to him last year ? Leaving him in doubt, waiting for me to reply his chat ? Leaving him out without telling him where I'd go ? Letting him think that I suddently gave him a cold shoulder ? My Idiot.. There's no such thing. I left you without a word because I want to see your reaction. I never thought you would break our relation that easily. I never ever thought that would happened. :')
I thought you would worried if something bad happened to me. Tapi sangkaan aku meleset sama sekali. Dia tak fikir panjang. Dia buat kesimpulan dia sendiri, yang mengatakan aku tinggal dia dia dengan sengaja. Aku tahu semua tu salah aku. Aku sepatutnya bagi tahu dia sebelum aku pergi. Aku tahu aku tak fikir panjang. But people do mistakes right ? Im not an angel who didnt do wrong. I am not an angel. Aku hanya manusia biasa yang tak boleh predict masa depan. Aku tak boleh buat semua tu.
Sampai bila ?
Sampai bila aku nak mengharapkan yang tak pasti ? Bukan ke aku sepatutnya enjoy life aku sekarang ? Aku dah tak perlu buat benda yang aku tak nak. Dia bukan boleh bagi aku kebahagian yang aku cari. ( Duhh-- cakap macam dia la jodoh aku )
He's my nobody. My nobody, I repeat.
Monday, March 04, 2013
Right after I make the promise
Assalamualaikum.
Dear Dark,
Right after I make that promise.. I broke it up right away--
I promise I wont shed tears for him ever again.. But when my heart say-- he's ignoring me right after he start the conversation hurts me a lot..
I cried.. Dark, I cried. Just a moment ago. I can still feel the warm of my tears.
How my breath felt like. I can still feel it all. :')
Why do he has to do that ? I didnt ask for him to start a conversation with this pitiful me. I didnt ask for it. But-- why he has to do this ?
Dark,
I cried too much.. Too much than I imagine. It feels like in one of those time when I was a little girl. When I cried for someone to understand the little me. SORROW. Just that in this pitiful girl's life, just that.
'' And it was rain in the bedroom when everything is wrong. Its rain when you here and its rain when youre gone. ''
That lyric keep spinning in my head. Yeah. Thats what he is to me now.
How sad--
I should have blocked you when you ask me to let go. I shouldnt have ask for us to still befriend. If I'd know it would turn out this way.. I wouldnt even approved your friend request... I wouldnt dare to do that.
Dark,
Why this thing happened to me ? My heart can bear this pain alone.. Its too hard. I cant holding on for too long.
I know maybe he's not the one for me. I know we arent meant to be. I know it all.
Pfft-- its not even real relationship. Im taking it too serious right ? Silly me. Im too stupid. Way way too stupid............
Dear Dark,
Right after I make that promise.. I broke it up right away--
I promise I wont shed tears for him ever again.. But when my heart say-- he's ignoring me right after he start the conversation hurts me a lot..
I cried.. Dark, I cried. Just a moment ago. I can still feel the warm of my tears.
How my breath felt like. I can still feel it all. :')
Why do he has to do that ? I didnt ask for him to start a conversation with this pitiful me. I didnt ask for it. But-- why he has to do this ?
Dark,
I cried too much.. Too much than I imagine. It feels like in one of those time when I was a little girl. When I cried for someone to understand the little me. SORROW. Just that in this pitiful girl's life, just that.
'' And it was rain in the bedroom when everything is wrong. Its rain when you here and its rain when youre gone. ''
That lyric keep spinning in my head. Yeah. Thats what he is to me now.
How sad--
I should have blocked you when you ask me to let go. I shouldnt have ask for us to still befriend. If I'd know it would turn out this way.. I wouldnt even approved your friend request... I wouldnt dare to do that.
Dark,
Why this thing happened to me ? My heart can bear this pain alone.. Its too hard. I cant holding on for too long.
I know maybe he's not the one for me. I know we arent meant to be. I know it all.
Pfft-- its not even real relationship. Im taking it too serious right ? Silly me. Im too stupid. Way way too stupid............
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MR. IDIOT ! :)
Dear Dark,
Assalamualaikum ~
It hasn't been too long right ? *chuckles*
Just today I get to use Mr. Lappy ~ Gomen ne.. I'd like to 'talk' to you everyday.. But it seems I'm too occupied with school and HOMEWORK of course. ==''
Dark,
Today.. It supposed to be a happy day to someone who's important to me. A day to celebrate. A day to laugh together. A day to have fun. But as for me, a day which is I'm about to cry. :')
About to cry, I repeat. *smiles sadly*
''Dear Mr. Idiot,
I wish you... A happy birthday.You're 19 years old now. Getting old, I see. I think I can move on from now. I pray, you and your family are good. Please smile. No matter what you do, face it with a smile. I'll be waiting for you... As a friend. Good luck in life. You're the best guy anyway. *chuckles* I hope everything you did will help you someday. Don't ever nagging when you couldn't do something. Instead, try your best to solve it. I know you tough. The toughest guy in my life. (not include my family) I know you brave enough. I know you're happy now. But I hope sometimes you will remember about me, too. Cause I'd love that to happen. :)
I will be there when you need someone. All you have to know is dont hesitate to come and talk to me about anything that bother you. Cause you're my friend. And I would like to help my friend as much as I can. *smiles*
I dont wanna say this words but I have to.. For this feeling I have for you, I have to erase it. And live my life.
. . . . Mr. Idiot, GOODBYE.
P/S : I LOVE YOU, MY FRIEND.
Assalamualaikum ~
It hasn't been too long right ? *chuckles*
Just today I get to use Mr. Lappy ~ Gomen ne.. I'd like to 'talk' to you everyday.. But it seems I'm too occupied with school and HOMEWORK of course. ==''
Dark,
Today.. It supposed to be a happy day to someone who's important to me. A day to celebrate. A day to laugh together. A day to have fun. But as for me, a day which is I'm about to cry. :')
About to cry, I repeat. *smiles sadly*
''Dear Mr. Idiot,
I wish you... A happy birthday.You're 19 years old now. Getting old, I see. I think I can move on from now. I pray, you and your family are good. Please smile. No matter what you do, face it with a smile. I'll be waiting for you... As a friend. Good luck in life. You're the best guy anyway. *chuckles* I hope everything you did will help you someday. Don't ever nagging when you couldn't do something. Instead, try your best to solve it. I know you tough. The toughest guy in my life. (not include my family) I know you brave enough. I know you're happy now. But I hope sometimes you will remember about me, too. Cause I'd love that to happen. :)
I will be there when you need someone. All you have to know is dont hesitate to come and talk to me about anything that bother you. Cause you're my friend. And I would like to help my friend as much as I can. *smiles*
I dont wanna say this words but I have to.. For this feeling I have for you, I have to erase it. And live my life.
. . . . Mr. Idiot, GOODBYE.
P/S : I LOVE YOU, MY FRIEND.
-Eve-
13:44, February 19th 2013''
Thats what I want to say to you. On this day. This moment. But I could do nothing. :')
My words can't seem to reach you. No one can help me to make it real. But I'd love you to read it. Really do.
Dark,
If you can reach him.. Can you say this words to him ?
'' I'm doing fine here. Even though, I cried a lot. But I'm trying to be stronger. Please support me wherever you are. Cause I need it. I have achieved one of my goals. And I promise you I will achieve others sooner. :)
When I have enough money. I will go to your country. (insya-Allah)
When I am there.. I hope I can meet you by chance. Maybe we're not going to talk because we dont know each other in real. But when that chances come.. I hope my heart beats real fast. So that I know-- that is the person I used to loved once. And still love as a friend. And when the time comes.. I want you to be happy with your own life. :) Maybe with your own family. *smiles gently*
If its really like that.. I bet that lady is really lucky to have you. To have your love, the way you cared and everything that you gave her. I'm sure of it. That lady is lucky. If by chance you will reactivate your account.. Please send me a message so that I know. :)
Haha.. Maybe you will make another account so that we dont have to make a conversation ever again. Am I right ? But I dont want to put it that way. :)
Mr. Idiot, I know.. Your girl-bestfriend didnt like me. I know it. She just act like she cared. Because of you. She really loves you, didnt she ? Pfft-- I dont care about that anyway. Didnt even care about her. But I really appreciate it. About all things that she had done.. Helps me about you, bad-mouthing me.. (maybe?) And everything. I really appreciate it. REALLY. :)
Be happy, honey. Be happy. :)
Gives everyone that warm smile of yours.
Dont worry about me. (I dont think you are.. )
I'll be fine. And I'll try not to cry ever again because of you. :)
Bye. ^^ ''
Dark.. Can you so it ? Reach him please. I really want him to know.. That I need an explanation. I need his '' goodbye '' . To move on. D':
Dark,
I'll be going now. See you around. *smiles slightly, about to burst out*
p/s : I love you... ( really want to hear that again )
Friday, February 08, 2013
Have you ever thought ?
Assalamualaikum ~ <3
Dear Dark,
HAPPY VERY BELATED NEW YEAR 2013 TO YOU !!!
Gomen ne ~ I thought so many time to say those thing to you but school took my time damn much ! =='' So.. Im sorry 'kay ?
Dark,
Today, I wanna confess something...
Lately.. They keep asking me 'Dont you want to talk to her again ?' (my EX- bestfriend)
You know what in my mind ?...
>>> DEAR GIRLS,
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, SHE MIGHT BACK STABBING ME. AGAIN ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, I MIGHT GET REALLY REALLY CLOSE TO HER AND START TO LEAVE YOU GIRLS A SIDE ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. WE MIGHT CANT BE LIKE WE'RE NOW BECAUSE OF HER ? <<<
That things always there in my mind. ALWAYS, I repeat. Its my choice right ? Do you really think I should befriend with her again ? Why ? Tell me WHY ? At least give me 5 REASONS for that. I dont understand why. I already forgive her and those 2 stupid girls a very long time ago. I didnt holding a grudge over them at all. Then, should Im the one who start the conversation again ? Huh.. You kidding me ? Im not that easy to deal with. I have heart, I have feeling. If you cant imagine for being in my place then KEEP YOUR FUCKING MOUTH SHUT ! I dont need any idea or you to lecture me ! I know well HOW MYSELF WORK !
And after all these days I forgive and tried to forget about she had done.. All she do these while is bad-mouthing me behind my back ? Im asking.. Did she really DESERVE MY APOLOGY ? Did she play the protagonist all these time and Im the antagonist ? Dont make a joke. I HAVE NEVER TELL THEM WHAT YOU DID TO ME. ALL THESE TIME. AND I GET IS THAT ? YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. :)
Dont make me talk to you face-to-face. Cause I dont know what I might do. Im not so good, you see.
Dark,
Why is it so hard for them to understand me ?... What a sad life-- *chuckles* Only him know if Im not fine. Right ? Even though.. He didnt know me in real life... Even though.. He didnt know in what tone am I speaking to him. He still know me well.. Even just for awhile.. He know whenever Im sad.. Im depressed.. Im happy.. He know it all.. So why cant do the same ?
Even though I act colder to him than them.. Just why ? D':
Its sad to think.. cause they know me longer. They know me in real life. But they cant understand me like he did... Its sad--
Dark,
I know its no use in telling you all this. But I feel better when I told you. :)
Thanks for being there my 'friend' . ^^ Love you so damn much ! cx
'kay ~ till we meet again. xDD
Wassalam. ;)
p/s : His b-day coming soon. Im drawing something for him. I will show you. :)
Happy belated new year to him, too. *smiles sadly*
Dear Dark,
HAPPY VERY BELATED NEW YEAR 2013 TO YOU !!!
Gomen ne ~ I thought so many time to say those thing to you but school took my time damn much ! =='' So.. Im sorry 'kay ?
Dark,
Today, I wanna confess something...
Lately.. They keep asking me 'Dont you want to talk to her again ?' (my EX- bestfriend)
You know what in my mind ?...
>>> DEAR GIRLS,
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, SHE MIGHT BACK STABBING ME. AGAIN ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, I MIGHT GET REALLY REALLY CLOSE TO HER AND START TO LEAVE YOU GIRLS A SIDE ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. WE MIGHT CANT BE LIKE WE'RE NOW BECAUSE OF HER ? <<<
That things always there in my mind. ALWAYS, I repeat. Its my choice right ? Do you really think I should befriend with her again ? Why ? Tell me WHY ? At least give me 5 REASONS for that. I dont understand why. I already forgive her and those 2 stupid girls a very long time ago. I didnt holding a grudge over them at all. Then, should Im the one who start the conversation again ? Huh.. You kidding me ? Im not that easy to deal with. I have heart, I have feeling. If you cant imagine for being in my place then KEEP YOUR FUCKING MOUTH SHUT ! I dont need any idea or you to lecture me ! I know well HOW MYSELF WORK !
And after all these days I forgive and tried to forget about she had done.. All she do these while is bad-mouthing me behind my back ? Im asking.. Did she really DESERVE MY APOLOGY ? Did she play the protagonist all these time and Im the antagonist ? Dont make a joke. I HAVE NEVER TELL THEM WHAT YOU DID TO ME. ALL THESE TIME. AND I GET IS THAT ? YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. :)
Dont make me talk to you face-to-face. Cause I dont know what I might do. Im not so good, you see.
Dark,
Why is it so hard for them to understand me ?... What a sad life-- *chuckles* Only him know if Im not fine. Right ? Even though.. He didnt know me in real life... Even though.. He didnt know in what tone am I speaking to him. He still know me well.. Even just for awhile.. He know whenever Im sad.. Im depressed.. Im happy.. He know it all.. So why cant do the same ?
Even though I act colder to him than them.. Just why ? D':
Its sad to think.. cause they know me longer. They know me in real life. But they cant understand me like he did... Its sad--
Dark,
I know its no use in telling you all this. But I feel better when I told you. :)
Thanks for being there my 'friend' . ^^ Love you so damn much ! cx
'kay ~ till we meet again. xDD
Wassalam. ;)
p/s : His b-day coming soon. Im drawing something for him. I will show you. :)
Happy belated new year to him, too. *smiles sadly*
Monday, December 31, 2012
Another Beautiful Day
Assalamualaikum. (◕‿◕✿)
Dear Dark,
Today I went to school. For my registration. I laugh a lot today. And my friends seems to know that YOU no longer mine. I didnt hear anything about they asking me about you. :)
Perhaps they already know ? *chuckles*
Ah -- by the way... Yesterday I cried again. ^^'' I read something that give me a slight heart attack. I feel stupid. Really do. She doesnt have to update her status like that, does she ? Damn-- I take things seriously. ==''
Anyway, Im in first class again. Pure science. Add math. I'll be dead right ? But I think Im closer to my dream. :) To reach what I want. To fufill my dream. To go where I want. Find my real self. I think I can make it. With HIS help. I think I could. :)
I know its not easy. But I will try my best. Its my dream. My future. If I say I can make it thats mean I can ! Yeah ! Fight ! Fight !
Even though I still have 2 years to get what I want. I will try my hardest from the start. ^^
A-Level -- not easy. If I can get there. Means Im really close to my dream ! I will make it come true. With my own will, teachers, friends and my FAMILY support. :) I know they can help me to achieve what I want. ^^
Dark,
I'll try my hardest to forget that relationship too. So pray for me ? ^^'' Those sweet memories he gave me. I'll treasure it. :) I will.
Dark,
Just now.. I fooled a girl. A law student. Said Im a A-Level medical student. Is it bad ? To do that to her ?? Seems like we're in the same country. Duh -- did I do something wrong ? (◕︿◕✿)
Dear Dark,
Today I went to school. For my registration. I laugh a lot today. And my friends seems to know that YOU no longer mine. I didnt hear anything about they asking me about you. :)
Perhaps they already know ? *chuckles*
Ah -- by the way... Yesterday I cried again. ^^'' I read something that give me a slight heart attack. I feel stupid. Really do. She doesnt have to update her status like that, does she ? Damn-- I take things seriously. ==''
Anyway, Im in first class again. Pure science. Add math. I'll be dead right ? But I think Im closer to my dream. :) To reach what I want. To fufill my dream. To go where I want. Find my real self. I think I can make it. With HIS help. I think I could. :)
I know its not easy. But I will try my best. Its my dream. My future. If I say I can make it thats mean I can ! Yeah ! Fight ! Fight !
Even though I still have 2 years to get what I want. I will try my hardest from the start. ^^
A-Level -- not easy. If I can get there. Means Im really close to my dream ! I will make it come true. With my own will, teachers, friends and my FAMILY support. :) I know they can help me to achieve what I want. ^^
Dark,
I'll try my hardest to forget that relationship too. So pray for me ? ^^'' Those sweet memories he gave me. I'll treasure it. :) I will.
Dark,
Just now.. I fooled a girl. A law student. Said Im a A-Level medical student. Is it bad ? To do that to her ?? Seems like we're in the same country. Duh -- did I do something wrong ? (◕︿◕✿)
Im sorry sis ! ><'' Its for 'another' me shake !
Dear Dark,
School going to start another 2 days.. And I have flu with me-- SO FRUSTRATING !!!
(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ Geez-- But I'll be fine, I guess. *put the table back* ┬──┬ ノ( ゜-゜ノ)
And-- I have 'no friends' at all !!! We're not in the same class anymore !!! GAHHH !! *sob sob* Pity me -- And they all teasing me with my result from my 'not studying at all' LOL.. x'DD Its funny when they doesnt believe me when I said that. CAUSE THATS THE TRUTH. |'D
Its fine we can still study together in certain subjects though ~ <3 Fuuuu-- xD
'kay ~ Gtg now. LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS !
Assalamualaikum. (▰˘◡˘▰)
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Cant 'see' you anymore ?
Dear Dark,
Today.. I receive my long awaited result. Im happy that it is my target. IM REALLY GRATEFUL. Even though I cant be among the best. But Im glad cause I can stand on my own feet. Without cheating or whatsoever. ^^
Too bad for me. I cant seems to fulfill my promise I make to him. To tell him what my result is. *sigh* Even though he the one who give me most of the luck. Keep cheering me up. Said I will get what I want. Now ? How am I supposed to thanked you ? I never done anything to you beside hurting you. I cant evern cheer you up. I cant be there with you when you needed me the most. Useless am I ? ^^'' Maybe we cant talk anymore. But I wish we can. Someday. For sure. I will never forget you. EVER. You teach me a lot. *chuckles* I really owe you. I wish I can meet you face-to-face one day. And I will let you know how much I owe you. But can we meet someday ? Sounds impossible for the 'shy' me. PFFT---
I hope you can be strong. To faced your family problems. I hope you can make it. And come back to be my friends. I hope for that. :) I love you as my friends. I love as my lover. I love as my family.
Dark,
When I manage to make the first star (origami) I wrote his name on it. I made it my lucky charm. Its funny. Cause first time I can make it. Im so happy. And the only thing on my mind is him. I take a good care of it. When Im in the exams. I took the star with me. Every single day. It make me believe I can make it. Its feel like youre rooting for me all the time. It feels like youre the watching me. Waiting beside me. And today-- When I want to get my result I take my star with me. I holds it in my hand. It give me hope that it will be okay. And yeah. Everything is fine. :) Im glad youre 'there' for me. Accompany me till the end. Youre the best thing I ever know. Youre important to me. Youre also special in my heart. I really hope we're in the same country. Cause it can make us exchange phone number. Will be able to hear your voice. Maybe see your face ? xD
Anything happened I hope you'll be fine. Cause I know youre the strongest person I ever known. I will keep you in my mind and heart. :)
I love you. I love you and I love you. ^^ And I will missed you so fucking damn much !
P/S : I'll be waiting for your come back. :)
Today.. I receive my long awaited result. Im happy that it is my target. IM REALLY GRATEFUL. Even though I cant be among the best. But Im glad cause I can stand on my own feet. Without cheating or whatsoever. ^^
Too bad for me. I cant seems to fulfill my promise I make to him. To tell him what my result is. *sigh* Even though he the one who give me most of the luck. Keep cheering me up. Said I will get what I want. Now ? How am I supposed to thanked you ? I never done anything to you beside hurting you. I cant evern cheer you up. I cant be there with you when you needed me the most. Useless am I ? ^^'' Maybe we cant talk anymore. But I wish we can. Someday. For sure. I will never forget you. EVER. You teach me a lot. *chuckles* I really owe you. I wish I can meet you face-to-face one day. And I will let you know how much I owe you. But can we meet someday ? Sounds impossible for the 'shy' me. PFFT---
I hope you can be strong. To faced your family problems. I hope you can make it. And come back to be my friends. I hope for that. :) I love you as my friends. I love as my lover. I love as my family.
Dark,
When I manage to make the first star (origami) I wrote his name on it. I made it my lucky charm. Its funny. Cause first time I can make it. Im so happy. And the only thing on my mind is him. I take a good care of it. When Im in the exams. I took the star with me. Every single day. It make me believe I can make it. Its feel like youre rooting for me all the time. It feels like youre the watching me. Waiting beside me. And today-- When I want to get my result I take my star with me. I holds it in my hand. It give me hope that it will be okay. And yeah. Everything is fine. :) Im glad youre 'there' for me. Accompany me till the end. Youre the best thing I ever know. Youre important to me. Youre also special in my heart. I really hope we're in the same country. Cause it can make us exchange phone number. Will be able to hear your voice. Maybe see your face ? xD
Anything happened I hope you'll be fine. Cause I know youre the strongest person I ever known. I will keep you in my mind and heart. :)
I love you. I love you and I love you. ^^ And I will missed you so fucking damn much !
P/S : I'll be waiting for your come back. :)
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
MY CONFESSION
Dear Dark,
Yesterday.. When I realised-- he deactivate his account. (current one) Now.. How am I supposed to full filled my promises ? I thought tomorrow I can tell him my long awaited result. (PMR) I wanna tell him what my result is. Because he accompany me every single night during my night classes. He make me feel at ease saying I can make it well. Now-- What am I supposed to do ? I cant tell him. Facebook the only way I can talk to him. I have no other way. What am I supposed to do ? He reply to my message yesterday. But I didnt think it would be the last one. I even act cold toward him. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ???
Dark,
I cried last night. Sadly to say. Again. I. Burst. Into. Tears. I thought I will be fine. But Im not fine at all. I really fall in love with him. And I thought I couldnt fall in love again after 'that guy'. But he opened up my heart. He make me break the wall around me. I owe him a lot ! Then why did he left just like that ? Breaking his own promises. I know this is just social-network relationship but-- I do take it seriously. Way way too serious. I need you. Even though youre not mine. I need you the most right now. I know I hurt you a lot. But thats me being childish. I love you in my own selfish way. Why cant you see ? :'c
I want you so badly. When you confessed I was damn happy. So happy and I cant think about anything at all. Hopeless. Thats what I am right now. I missed you called me 'Eve'. No one gonna called me with that name again-- No one. No one can get me like you did. No one can make me laugh, smile, sad, annoyed, flustered-- Like you did. No one.
Gawd-- Now I want to cry again. More importantly, you make me cry more than 'that guy' can make me. Thats show how much I cared. I missed you. I miss you. I'll miss you. There's no way I can get rid of this feeling. Why cant you see right through me right now ? That you the one who I need the most ? I need you. I need you. I NEED YOU !
I know your break up reason-- Not your real reason. I wanna know the truth. Why wont you tell me the truth ? I.. I need to know them. From the start-- You didnt even cared to tell me something important to you. That passed away relative. That bad cough of yours. That exam you will faced on the same week as mine. Your work.
Yeah. I know them now at least. But-- Im tired of being last to know. Am I that important to you before ? Do you really care ? You always. Always leave without a sign during our conversation. You always make me wait. Leave me hanging up-- thinking what possible. You make your own conclusion whenever we fight. Youre impatient. Youre forceful sometimes. You being cold toward me. You way way too flirty with those girls and make me jealous. But I never told you.. I did. Your winking emotion [ ;) ] I like the most. Your naughty thought. Your dare. You being serious. You being childish. The mature you. Your single ' Hey ' make me smiling. (sometimes I laughing alone like an idiot) YOUR EVERYTHING. I LOVE THEM ALL. ALL OF THEM. ALL OF THEM. I dont care to wait for you. Because I know you will come to me. Just like yesterday. I know you will came to me. But I woke up way too late. I regret it. I dont care you make me sad. Because I know you will make me smile soon after that. I love you. I really do. I really do---
Im scared to lose something precious. I told you. Now I lose my precious thing. What am I supposed to do ? Its hard for me. Too hard. No one can make me smile right now. Besides, you. No one-- Ah-- ! Just if you can read this post of mine. I bet you will understand why I needed you the most...
I am cold toward you because if I dont I will easily falling even harder for you. I have to faced this problem alone. I cant involve anyone with this. :)
I have to be strong. But still I wont give up on US. Even there's no ''us'' anymore.
P/S : I still love you. And I will always do.
Yesterday.. When I realised-- he deactivate his account. (current one) Now.. How am I supposed to full filled my promises ? I thought tomorrow I can tell him my long awaited result. (PMR) I wanna tell him what my result is. Because he accompany me every single night during my night classes. He make me feel at ease saying I can make it well. Now-- What am I supposed to do ? I cant tell him. Facebook the only way I can talk to him. I have no other way. What am I supposed to do ? He reply to my message yesterday. But I didnt think it would be the last one. I even act cold toward him. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ???
Dark,
I cried last night. Sadly to say. Again. I. Burst. Into. Tears. I thought I will be fine. But Im not fine at all. I really fall in love with him. And I thought I couldnt fall in love again after 'that guy'. But he opened up my heart. He make me break the wall around me. I owe him a lot ! Then why did he left just like that ? Breaking his own promises. I know this is just social-network relationship but-- I do take it seriously. Way way too serious. I need you. Even though youre not mine. I need you the most right now. I know I hurt you a lot. But thats me being childish. I love you in my own selfish way. Why cant you see ? :'c
I want you so badly. When you confessed I was damn happy. So happy and I cant think about anything at all. Hopeless. Thats what I am right now. I missed you called me 'Eve'. No one gonna called me with that name again-- No one. No one can get me like you did. No one can make me laugh, smile, sad, annoyed, flustered-- Like you did. No one.
Gawd-- Now I want to cry again. More importantly, you make me cry more than 'that guy' can make me. Thats show how much I cared. I missed you. I miss you. I'll miss you. There's no way I can get rid of this feeling. Why cant you see right through me right now ? That you the one who I need the most ? I need you. I need you. I NEED YOU !
I know your break up reason-- Not your real reason. I wanna know the truth. Why wont you tell me the truth ? I.. I need to know them. From the start-- You didnt even cared to tell me something important to you. That passed away relative. That bad cough of yours. That exam you will faced on the same week as mine. Your work.
Yeah. I know them now at least. But-- Im tired of being last to know. Am I that important to you before ? Do you really care ? You always. Always leave without a sign during our conversation. You always make me wait. Leave me hanging up-- thinking what possible. You make your own conclusion whenever we fight. Youre impatient. Youre forceful sometimes. You being cold toward me. You way way too flirty with those girls and make me jealous. But I never told you.. I did. Your winking emotion [ ;) ] I like the most. Your naughty thought. Your dare. You being serious. You being childish. The mature you. Your single ' Hey ' make me smiling. (sometimes I laughing alone like an idiot) YOUR EVERYTHING. I LOVE THEM ALL. ALL OF THEM. ALL OF THEM. I dont care to wait for you. Because I know you will come to me. Just like yesterday. I know you will came to me. But I woke up way too late. I regret it. I dont care you make me sad. Because I know you will make me smile soon after that. I love you. I really do. I really do---
Im scared to lose something precious. I told you. Now I lose my precious thing. What am I supposed to do ? Its hard for me. Too hard. No one can make me smile right now. Besides, you. No one-- Ah-- ! Just if you can read this post of mine. I bet you will understand why I needed you the most...
I am cold toward you because if I dont I will easily falling even harder for you. I have to faced this problem alone. I cant involve anyone with this. :)
I have to be strong. But still I wont give up on US. Even there's no ''us'' anymore.
P/S : I still love you. And I will always do.
Monday, December 03, 2012
Broken Hearted---??
Dear Dark,
It's been a damn long time doesnt it???
Dont you miss me damn much~? Hhe~ I miss you so. ^^
So today.. After a very long time I confessed something to you. I will make a confession about someone. Yeah.. Someone. :)
Precious enough for me to write about him here. But I know he will never read it though ! *chuckles* Confident enough right? xD
Dear Mr. Vampy,
Okay ! Confession time end here ! ^^
I will move on. And try my hardest to let go.
Thank you.
It's been a damn long time doesnt it???
Dont you miss me damn much~? Hhe~ I miss you so. ^^
So today.. After a very long time I confessed something to you. I will make a confession about someone. Yeah.. Someone. :)
Precious enough for me to write about him here. But I know he will never read it though ! *chuckles* Confident enough right? xD
Dear Mr. Vampy,
I cant let go so easily.. Im drowning cant you see? I've so much fun with you..so much fun-- youre cruel.. After saying Im not going to lose you.. You leave me out. Its hurt. Too cruel-- -smiles- I know youre not going to read this thats why i sent it here cause I dont want you to feel sorry for me. I love you-- even though its not the same as my love for him.. I still love you though. You can make my day. You can make me forgot bout him.. Even just for a while. Im glad I've met you. ^^ but still youre too cruel.. I know youre still lonely and bored whenever Im around. Im not fun at all-- I know. Actually, Im pretty cold with everyone. Even my friends. No one can easily break the ice between us. But you did a little~! At least. ^^
I will move on. And try my hardest to let go.
Thank you.
p/s : If you ever read this.. Just pretend you dont. But I dont think you will read though~
Byebee.. ^^
Byebee.. ^^
One more thing-- my nonchalant.. Only you, him and my people who close enough know it. ^^ and there's always a reason why.. every time I become like that.
Dear Dark,
Hohoho~ When I have times-- I will share something more interesting with you ! Hehee~ You will wait for me right?? Nah-- Youre my always understanding 'friend'. ^^
Oh yeah ! This morning I throw up. And caught a damn cold. My head all dizzy and feels damn heavy~! =='' Geez~ why should I write it?? No one cares, right? Ahahaha~
Now, now~ I take my leave. I will come again, okay? ^^ Love you both. :)
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
07:15 a.m.???... o_O
Dear Dark,
Mesti kau pelik kan bile bace post aku kali ni???
hehehe~ actually something just happened today!!!
kelmarin terlintas dalam hati aku... >>>kenapa aku tak pernah jalan sekali dengan 'dia' masa datang sekolah?...<<< yang dimaksukan dengan 'datang sekali tu bukan dari rumah kitorang sampai sekolah...maksud aku terserempak dengan dia masa aku sampai sekolah ke??.. then aku jalan belakang dia ke??? tu maksud sebenar aku!~
kurang 24jam aku nak situasi tu berlaku. hari ni dah berlaku!... xD
can you imagine it?! can you imagine it?! ><
Tepat jam 07:15 pagi...
Blok kelas aku...
Tangga...
Aku tengok dia dari jauh!.. (aku tetap boleh tahu even aku 'rabun' tau!.. xD)
Bile dia naik satu anak tangga aku percepatkan langkah aku! (aku pun tak tahu kenapa...reflect kot?..) Then you know what happen next?! even though, kitorang tak naik tangga yang sama...urm..i mean kitorang naik tangga yg bertentangan... at least kitorang naik tangga tu dalam masa yang sama kan?... Tapi kan...mula-mula tu aku rasa tak ada orang yang perasan situasi tu... But my guess was wrong! Time balik tadi aku dengan kawan-kawan pergi beli air...
Seorang kawan aku pun cakap kat aku.. '' Pagi tadi dah la naik tangga sama-sama...'' (dengan nada yang agak nakal la... xD) kebetulan masa kitorang nak pergi beli tu..kitorang berselisih dengan dia~ Ya Allah! aku rasa muka aku panas gila masa tu!!! Tapi masih boleh control lagi okay! ^^''
Tapi aku glad gila bila tahu dia seorang je yang tau... *fuhh...lega~*
Anyway hari ni tak ada la stress sangat!...Tapi esok mungkin!
Esok ada program! Amani pulak tak boleh pergi!!!... Jeez then siapa yang nak tolong aku?!
Frust nya! Hahaha..tu bukan first impression aku sebenarnya... ^_< Boring la tak ada dia! Tak ada la 'keriuhan' dia nanti!!! huhuhu...
Dark,
Aku tak tahu apa yang patut aku 'cakap' dengan kau la... -_-
Blank dah!...ingatkan hari ni dapat la nak luangkan masa dengan kau lama sikit! hurm... kesiankan? Aku ni macam orang yang tak ada life je....
Angel,
I heard rumors that PMR trial might be 2 weeks from now... I'm worried if i don't get the best result... erm..it seem like i'll never can get it... what i should do?.. can i change my destiny?..
I don't want them hoping for nothing!... I want to give them a MEMORABLE gift this year!!!
Ya Allah, help me...in what ever situation it is... I can't do anything without your permission!
Aku betul-betul nak yang terbaik untuk diri aku..untuk semua orang yang memberi harapan kepada aku...semua yang support aku... Aku tak nak sia-sia kannya..macam aku sia-sia kan UPSR dulu... Rasa macam batu besar yang menghempap aku masa dapat tau result tu... Aku bersyukur cuma..aku dah kecaikan harapan my mom dengan my dad... Aku tak nak perkara yang sama berlaku lagi... :( diorang berharap gila dengan aku! So doa kan aku ya???...
Rasa macam aku bukannya cerita kat kau pasal ''07:15 a.m.'' je ni... hahaha... sorry la erk?...
cause there's nothing special to be told bout him!... aku anggap dia cam orang yang aku admire je~ THAT'S WHY I NICKNAMED HIM ''MR. ADMIRE'' hahaha... caps lock kan...so that kau tahu ape yang nak disampaikan! so tak ada la salah faham nanti!... :)
So till next time! have a nice day both of you!!! (DarkAngel and Mr. Cactus)
Luv you my precious!
P/S : actually 07:15 a.m banyak kebetulan yang berlaku masa ni... contohnya...lintas jalan dengan jejaka berkaca mata dua kali... about 07:20 lintas jalan dengan someone crush...
hahaha...terbaik lah! xD
Mesti kau pelik kan bile bace post aku kali ni???
hehehe~ actually something just happened today!!!
kelmarin terlintas dalam hati aku... >>>kenapa aku tak pernah jalan sekali dengan 'dia' masa datang sekolah?...<<< yang dimaksukan dengan 'datang sekali tu bukan dari rumah kitorang sampai sekolah...maksud aku terserempak dengan dia masa aku sampai sekolah ke??.. then aku jalan belakang dia ke??? tu maksud sebenar aku!~
kurang 24jam aku nak situasi tu berlaku. hari ni dah berlaku!... xD
can you imagine it?! can you imagine it?! ><
Tepat jam 07:15 pagi...
Blok kelas aku...
Tangga...
Aku tengok dia dari jauh!.. (aku tetap boleh tahu even aku 'rabun' tau!.. xD)
Bile dia naik satu anak tangga aku percepatkan langkah aku! (aku pun tak tahu kenapa...reflect kot?..) Then you know what happen next?! even though, kitorang tak naik tangga yang sama...urm..i mean kitorang naik tangga yg bertentangan... at least kitorang naik tangga tu dalam masa yang sama kan?... Tapi kan...mula-mula tu aku rasa tak ada orang yang perasan situasi tu... But my guess was wrong! Time balik tadi aku dengan kawan-kawan pergi beli air...
Seorang kawan aku pun cakap kat aku.. '' Pagi tadi dah la naik tangga sama-sama...'' (dengan nada yang agak nakal la... xD) kebetulan masa kitorang nak pergi beli tu..kitorang berselisih dengan dia~ Ya Allah! aku rasa muka aku panas gila masa tu!!! Tapi masih boleh control lagi okay! ^^''
Tapi aku glad gila bila tahu dia seorang je yang tau... *fuhh...lega~*
Anyway hari ni tak ada la stress sangat!...Tapi esok mungkin!
Esok ada program! Amani pulak tak boleh pergi!!!... Jeez then siapa yang nak tolong aku?!
Frust nya! Hahaha..tu bukan first impression aku sebenarnya... ^_< Boring la tak ada dia! Tak ada la 'keriuhan' dia nanti!!! huhuhu...
Dark,
Aku tak tahu apa yang patut aku 'cakap' dengan kau la... -_-
Blank dah!...ingatkan hari ni dapat la nak luangkan masa dengan kau lama sikit! hurm... kesiankan? Aku ni macam orang yang tak ada life je....
Angel,
I heard rumors that PMR trial might be 2 weeks from now... I'm worried if i don't get the best result... erm..it seem like i'll never can get it... what i should do?.. can i change my destiny?..
I don't want them hoping for nothing!... I want to give them a MEMORABLE gift this year!!!
Ya Allah, help me...in what ever situation it is... I can't do anything without your permission!
Aku betul-betul nak yang terbaik untuk diri aku..untuk semua orang yang memberi harapan kepada aku...semua yang support aku... Aku tak nak sia-sia kannya..macam aku sia-sia kan UPSR dulu... Rasa macam batu besar yang menghempap aku masa dapat tau result tu... Aku bersyukur cuma..aku dah kecaikan harapan my mom dengan my dad... Aku tak nak perkara yang sama berlaku lagi... :( diorang berharap gila dengan aku! So doa kan aku ya???...
Rasa macam aku bukannya cerita kat kau pasal ''07:15 a.m.'' je ni... hahaha... sorry la erk?...
cause there's nothing special to be told bout him!... aku anggap dia cam orang yang aku admire je~ THAT'S WHY I NICKNAMED HIM ''MR. ADMIRE'' hahaha... caps lock kan...so that kau tahu ape yang nak disampaikan! so tak ada la salah faham nanti!... :)
So till next time! have a nice day both of you!!! (DarkAngel and Mr. Cactus)
Luv you my precious!
P/S : actually 07:15 a.m banyak kebetulan yang berlaku masa ni... contohnya...lintas jalan dengan jejaka berkaca mata dua kali... about 07:20 lintas jalan dengan someone crush...
hahaha...terbaik lah! xD
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Mr. Helpful?!... :D
Dear Dark,
aku dah agak dah xkan lamenye aku bahaskan diri ''NA'' tu...ermm...i think i'm not that girly type??...hahaha...
okay!!! now back to the main topic!!
i bet! sesape je yg bace entri nie mesti tertanye-tanye an??? (prasannyer!!!mcm ramai plak yg follow?! hahaha xpe..xpe...skali sekale! xD)
nak dijagi kan crite... hari jumaat lepas..(May 25) trip aku ngan keluarga ke Shah Alam...:D
hari ahad cousin aku kawen!...so sbelum nak p sane...kene amik abg aku yg no.5 kat Kemaman...
so...the story start WHEN...the car broke down!!! hahaha!! (skali seumur hidup!!)
tau x...pertame kalinye kitorang ''bertandang'' kat sane lebih kurang dlm 10 JAM!!~ xD
klakar la weh!! class kete yg rosak sume dlm kete tu kecoh abes!! especially my mom la...(actually dye sorg je...yg laen chill je... aku la PALING chill!!! sumpah aku ckp ko!...kalau sesape tengok aku mase tu...happy semacam!!! (haha..dah gile..maybe? xD)
my mom siap nak balek KB lagi bile kitorg brenti kat satu workshop ni...coz dye ckp sehari baru bleh siap nak ganti class tu...tp my dad plak kate troskan je perjalanan tu...sampainye kat S/A tu...
then abg aku yg no.5 tu sbelum tu dah ckp kalau nak amek dye ikut jln ke cukai..pastu driver krete (abg no.3) dpt direction yg salah..entah sampai katne ntah kitorg mase tu! (ade name tempat tu tp aku x ingt)
sampai satu tahap tu..class krete tu habes tros!!! KOSONG!!! so xleh grak tros...naseb baek la ade rumah org kat situ!...(bersyukur gile!) tuan rumah tu baek gile!!! try pikir...dye sanggup tunggu kitorg smpai kitorang pegi?... baek yg teramat!!! dye ade la jugak telefon mekanik2 yg dye kenal...tp still dpt jwpan same...esk gak bleh siap...coz xde class dlm stok... my mom telefon abg yg no.5 tu sampai marah2 ckp jln mane yg dye soh lalu tu...abg aku sendiri surprise bile tau kitorg kat situ...(salah jln ko...xD) so sambil kwn2 dye nak balik Dungun..(rasenye?...) dye tumpang...sampai je dye kat kitorg gelak besar dye...hahaha seriously?! he can laugh?! jeez...
2org kwn dye pegi kat dpn tu tengok pe yg rosak...(eleh..tengok je aku pon bleh!!!) aku yg dok dlm krete nie control ayu!!! hahaha gurau je...aku x layan pon...i've got Mr. 9 rite?! xD
pastu kwn dye nie call kwn dyorg...(bukan kwn abg aku...knal2 gitu jer...) kwn kpd kwn abg aku pon sampai...4-5 org gak la....(x ingt)...seriously sampai je situ...x smpai beberape minit...dah sebok ngan phone... mule2 aku x tau sal pe...tp bile my dad explain kat kitorang baru aku paham...dyorg nak tolong kitorang rupenye...(sorry...dah salah anggap!)
pastu setengah jam atau sejam gitu...dyorg sampai balik...(tdi p mintak bantuan...xD) pastu towing tu sampai...3 buah krete plak sampai...haha(popularnye krete aku...) sorg tu aku tengok dok amek krete yg kene tarik tu...gile pe??? macam x penah tengok jer?!! flash sane flash sini...urgh!! it's annoy me!! -_-''
pastu bile nak naek krete tu...my dad pilih tuk naek krete Mr. Helpful!...hahaha...shock aku skejap!! (dlm diam happy kot?... xD) naek je...naek je...lps antar krete tu kat workshop yg Mr. Helpful knal...kitorang p makan...my dad yg blanje...dyorg dah tolong kot???....
ehh!!! kejap!!!....sebelum p makan tu dyorg bukan maen sebok lagi...call sane...call sini...semate-mate nak cari krete sewa tuk kitorg!!! (terharu~) yg aku nampak..Mr. Helpful tu skali dye dpt call...dye tanye sal krete sewa... baek kan?... aku pon x sungguh2 gitu... hahaha...
mase kat kedai makan tu...my sixth sense...(cewah!! xD) rase cam ade org yg sesekali stare kat aku...alaa...biase la tu kan?... (ahaks... aku nie over je lebeh!!!xD) pastu kannnn...Mr. Helpful ngan aku minum air yg same!!! pfft...mcm aku sorang je yg boleh minum air tu.... (teh o ais limau) happy je aku...mcm org terputus wayer je....hehehe...skali skale...xD
pastu bile my dad dah stuju ngan krete yg dye ckp... (jazz ngan viva...jazz tu abg dye punye...)
dye bwk kitorg p masjid...nak solat la pe lgi?... tp kan...otak nie asyik tertanye-tanye...dye x solat same ke??? coz bile aku dah siap tu aku tengok dye ngan family aku chill je duduk kat bangku..bawah pokok...dlm gelap..banyak NYAMUK!... hurm,..x baek la kalau aku buat conclusion sendiri...maybe balik umah dye solat...sape tau kan?..(family dye tau kot??...xD)
so...kul 00:23 pagi sabtu tu..kitorg gerak p S/A balik...atas pertolongan dye kitorg slamat sampai kat sane dlm kul 5 lebeh...(pagi..of course..^^)
hari sabtu tu my mom bukan maen excited menggosok baju oren tu...(tema wedding tu) then bile nak sampai tu ternampak sepanduk atau name yg sewaktu dengannye...27 h/b...gile ko!... aku tetap chill..(well...it's me... xD) mulut aku je yg dok slah kan my mom...bukan salah dye pon...aunt aku x ckp pon tarikh wedding...sampai je rumah aunt aku tu...cousin aku bgi pinjam baju kurung dye...it's suit me!!!i guess?...xD (alaa...prasan skali skale x kesah kan??...hehehe..)
aku pon ikut gak p amek krete tu...(dah repair) aku pakse dad aku ikut ko!! hahaha...ehemm...aku p bukan sbb Mr. Helpful okay!... kalau aku dok umah aunt aku tu...aku bukan bleh wat pape pon!...baek aku pegi kan??? bleh gak cuci mate!!hahaha!! xD
lewat gak kitorg sampai Kemaman...dlm kul 17:30gak la... keje aku pegi balik...membuta je!! xD
Mr. Helpful datang kat workshop tu ngan krete len...(susahnye jdi org kaya...) sweet la bile aku tengok dye.... ehem...nak cite sal ciri2 dye>>> x tinggi...(reject dah..xD) prasankan aku neh?...ya..ya...aku tau :D...dye x putih tp x terlalu gelap...sedang2 jer... wear glasses..(hahaha...NERD! xD) saje je...keje kat Petronas...(my dad yg tanye okay!!) an engineer maybe?...(xkan dye nak ckp kot?? -_-) anak org berada...(abg aku yg no.5 tu ckp!...) he is a SMOKER!!!...(terkejut gak bile aku tengok...ingatkan slah nampak..tp my mom sure kan aku...) muke innocent pon merokok ke??? pfft!~ mesti bertuah kan mane2 girls yg dpt dye?... (xkesah kite ade Mr. 9!! xD)
okei sambung yg tdi...dye berckp ngan abg aku yg no.2 mcm dah knal...siap gelak2 lgi...(hehee..ade chance le tue~ xD) pastu mase nak hantar krete viva tu..kelibat dye dah xde...hurm...sbelum kitorg btolak p S/A balik...dye call my dad...maybe he got work to do...sekurang-kurangnye dye call kan?...kat workshop je aku nampak dye...and there's the goodbye...^^'' i hope can meet him someday~ (maybe...maybe not!) dlm banyak2 men yg aku knal (even dyorg x knal aku!! xD) dye la yg paling2 suke menolong!..(kwn2 dye gak...)
aku ingt lagi...pagi sabtu tu...dye call my dad (dlm keadaan mamai pon aku tau dye yang call tau!!) dye ckp krete siap kul 3...aku tido balik pastu...mase aku bangun tu aku tros capai phone dad aku cari receive call list...dari situ aku tau pe yg dye nak org panggil dye...
Dark...aku xkan bgi tau kau la!!~ :D let it be my secret...just me...^^ (even my dad ngan abg2 aku dah tau) so what?...i don't care!!!
so...sampai sini je la dulu...^^ len kali kalau aku ade story yg menarik lgi...aku post kat kau ye Dark?...
nite..nite... Mr. 9 have a good day!!!hope its sunny today!!! :)
aku dah agak dah xkan lamenye aku bahaskan diri ''NA'' tu...ermm...i think i'm not that girly type??...hahaha...
okay!!! now back to the main topic!!
i bet! sesape je yg bace entri nie mesti tertanye-tanye an??? (prasannyer!!!mcm ramai plak yg follow?! hahaha xpe..xpe...skali sekale! xD)
nak dijagi kan crite... hari jumaat lepas..(May 25) trip aku ngan keluarga ke Shah Alam...:D
hari ahad cousin aku kawen!...so sbelum nak p sane...kene amik abg aku yg no.5 kat Kemaman...
so...the story start WHEN...the car broke down!!! hahaha!! (skali seumur hidup!!)
tau x...pertame kalinye kitorang ''bertandang'' kat sane lebih kurang dlm 10 JAM!!~ xD
klakar la weh!! class kete yg rosak sume dlm kete tu kecoh abes!! especially my mom la...(actually dye sorg je...yg laen chill je... aku la PALING chill!!! sumpah aku ckp ko!...kalau sesape tengok aku mase tu...happy semacam!!! (haha..dah gile..maybe? xD)
my mom siap nak balek KB lagi bile kitorg brenti kat satu workshop ni...coz dye ckp sehari baru bleh siap nak ganti class tu...tp my dad plak kate troskan je perjalanan tu...sampainye kat S/A tu...
then abg aku yg no.5 tu sbelum tu dah ckp kalau nak amek dye ikut jln ke cukai..pastu driver krete (abg no.3) dpt direction yg salah..entah sampai katne ntah kitorg mase tu! (ade name tempat tu tp aku x ingt)
sampai satu tahap tu..class krete tu habes tros!!! KOSONG!!! so xleh grak tros...naseb baek la ade rumah org kat situ!...(bersyukur gile!) tuan rumah tu baek gile!!! try pikir...dye sanggup tunggu kitorg smpai kitorang pegi?... baek yg teramat!!! dye ade la jugak telefon mekanik2 yg dye kenal...tp still dpt jwpan same...esk gak bleh siap...coz xde class dlm stok... my mom telefon abg yg no.5 tu sampai marah2 ckp jln mane yg dye soh lalu tu...abg aku sendiri surprise bile tau kitorg kat situ...(salah jln ko...xD) so sambil kwn2 dye nak balik Dungun..(rasenye?...) dye tumpang...sampai je dye kat kitorg gelak besar dye...hahaha seriously?! he can laugh?! jeez...
2org kwn dye pegi kat dpn tu tengok pe yg rosak...(eleh..tengok je aku pon bleh!!!) aku yg dok dlm krete nie control ayu!!! hahaha gurau je...aku x layan pon...i've got Mr. 9 rite?! xD
pastu kwn dye nie call kwn dyorg...(bukan kwn abg aku...knal2 gitu jer...) kwn kpd kwn abg aku pon sampai...4-5 org gak la....(x ingt)...seriously sampai je situ...x smpai beberape minit...dah sebok ngan phone... mule2 aku x tau sal pe...tp bile my dad explain kat kitorang baru aku paham...dyorg nak tolong kitorang rupenye...(sorry...dah salah anggap!)
pastu setengah jam atau sejam gitu...dyorg sampai balik...(tdi p mintak bantuan...xD) pastu towing tu sampai...3 buah krete plak sampai...haha(popularnye krete aku...) sorg tu aku tengok dok amek krete yg kene tarik tu...gile pe??? macam x penah tengok jer?!! flash sane flash sini...urgh!! it's annoy me!! -_-''
pastu bile nak naek krete tu...my dad pilih tuk naek krete Mr. Helpful!...hahaha...shock aku skejap!! (dlm diam happy kot?... xD) naek je...naek je...lps antar krete tu kat workshop yg Mr. Helpful knal...kitorang p makan...my dad yg blanje...dyorg dah tolong kot???....
ehh!!! kejap!!!....sebelum p makan tu dyorg bukan maen sebok lagi...call sane...call sini...semate-mate nak cari krete sewa tuk kitorg!!! (terharu~) yg aku nampak..Mr. Helpful tu skali dye dpt call...dye tanye sal krete sewa... baek kan?... aku pon x sungguh2 gitu... hahaha...
mase kat kedai makan tu...my sixth sense...(cewah!! xD) rase cam ade org yg sesekali stare kat aku...alaa...biase la tu kan?... (ahaks... aku nie over je lebeh!!!xD) pastu kannnn...Mr. Helpful ngan aku minum air yg same!!! pfft...mcm aku sorang je yg boleh minum air tu.... (teh o ais limau) happy je aku...mcm org terputus wayer je....hehehe...skali skale...xD
pastu bile my dad dah stuju ngan krete yg dye ckp... (jazz ngan viva...jazz tu abg dye punye...)
dye bwk kitorg p masjid...nak solat la pe lgi?... tp kan...otak nie asyik tertanye-tanye...dye x solat same ke??? coz bile aku dah siap tu aku tengok dye ngan family aku chill je duduk kat bangku..bawah pokok...dlm gelap..banyak NYAMUK!... hurm,..x baek la kalau aku buat conclusion sendiri...maybe balik umah dye solat...sape tau kan?..(family dye tau kot??...xD)
so...kul 00:23 pagi sabtu tu..kitorg gerak p S/A balik...atas pertolongan dye kitorg slamat sampai kat sane dlm kul 5 lebeh...(pagi..of course..^^)
hari sabtu tu my mom bukan maen excited menggosok baju oren tu...(tema wedding tu) then bile nak sampai tu ternampak sepanduk atau name yg sewaktu dengannye...27 h/b...gile ko!... aku tetap chill..(well...it's me... xD) mulut aku je yg dok slah kan my mom...bukan salah dye pon...aunt aku x ckp pon tarikh wedding...sampai je rumah aunt aku tu...cousin aku bgi pinjam baju kurung dye...it's suit me!!!i guess?...xD (alaa...prasan skali skale x kesah kan??...hehehe..)
aku pon ikut gak p amek krete tu...(dah repair) aku pakse dad aku ikut ko!! hahaha...ehemm...aku p bukan sbb Mr. Helpful okay!... kalau aku dok umah aunt aku tu...aku bukan bleh wat pape pon!...baek aku pegi kan??? bleh gak cuci mate!!hahaha!! xD
lewat gak kitorg sampai Kemaman...dlm kul 17:30gak la... keje aku pegi balik...membuta je!! xD
Mr. Helpful datang kat workshop tu ngan krete len...(susahnye jdi org kaya...) sweet la bile aku tengok dye.... ehem...nak cite sal ciri2 dye>>> x tinggi...(reject dah..xD) prasankan aku neh?...ya..ya...aku tau :D...dye x putih tp x terlalu gelap...sedang2 jer... wear glasses..(hahaha...NERD! xD) saje je...keje kat Petronas...(my dad yg tanye okay!!) an engineer maybe?...(xkan dye nak ckp kot?? -_-) anak org berada...(abg aku yg no.5 tu ckp!...) he is a SMOKER!!!...(terkejut gak bile aku tengok...ingatkan slah nampak..tp my mom sure kan aku...) muke innocent pon merokok ke??? pfft!~ mesti bertuah kan mane2 girls yg dpt dye?... (xkesah kite ade Mr. 9!! xD)
okei sambung yg tdi...dye berckp ngan abg aku yg no.2 mcm dah knal...siap gelak2 lgi...(hehee..ade chance le tue~ xD) pastu mase nak hantar krete viva tu..kelibat dye dah xde...hurm...sbelum kitorg btolak p S/A balik...dye call my dad...maybe he got work to do...sekurang-kurangnye dye call kan?...kat workshop je aku nampak dye...and there's the goodbye...^^'' i hope can meet him someday~ (maybe...maybe not!) dlm banyak2 men yg aku knal (even dyorg x knal aku!! xD) dye la yg paling2 suke menolong!..(kwn2 dye gak...)
aku ingt lagi...pagi sabtu tu...dye call my dad (dlm keadaan mamai pon aku tau dye yang call tau!!) dye ckp krete siap kul 3...aku tido balik pastu...mase aku bangun tu aku tros capai phone dad aku cari receive call list...dari situ aku tau pe yg dye nak org panggil dye...
Dark...aku xkan bgi tau kau la!!~ :D let it be my secret...just me...^^ (even my dad ngan abg2 aku dah tau) so what?...i don't care!!!
so...sampai sini je la dulu...^^ len kali kalau aku ade story yg menarik lgi...aku post kat kau ye Dark?...
nite..nite... Mr. 9 have a good day!!!hope its sunny today!!! :)
Thursday, March 15, 2012
why him?...
slm...
today...my mind keep askin' the same thing...
every minutes..or you can say...every SECOND!...
why him???why him???WHY HIM???
why should i be in love with someone who already has someone to be loved...
pathetic rite?... but thats what make me so strong...
i promise myself with some STUPID things...
huh...i'm my self don't know if i can do it...but i know someday i will... :)
i don't care what people think of me...
this evening i dream of him...
in that dream we seem close but i know he try to ignoring me...
that dram really do make me HAPPY...
but what it really mean???
first time i dream of him this year...and its close to his birthday...
kalau tu sume mainan tido...haa...x bleh nak pikir dah...
its never happen to me before never!!!...so why now?...
i need an answer...ASAP!!!~
hahaha...sape la yg bleh bagi jawapan tu an?...
tomorrow i WILL make chocolate moist cake...
for me to celebrate for his birthday even though he doesn't know...
or you can say he never wanna know... :)
its okay though...i can make it as excuse ''i make it for my friends''
they really do love it... xD
keep asking me to make it... ^^ thats make me happy...:)
i'm glad!... :D (hehee...ade jugak yg sudi)
knowing you is just a DISASTER...
meeting you is just a DREAM...
living with you is just a FANTASY...
being loved by you is just a FAIRY TALE...
whatever it is...you're still in my HEART
hahaha...i make it...especially for him...
that what i think what between us...
or you can say..more likely to ME... xD
but thats me...no one can change that bout me...
datang la seramai mane yg pujuk tuk lUPEKAN dye...
i WILL not!!! he already owned my HEART...
kalau nak lupekan... dye mesti pulangkan balik!!! :(
that is oe of my promise...
I WILL NEVER EVER EVER FORGET HIM...
N-E-V-E-R!!!
dah...stakat nie jer...org2 tu dah bising...baru bape jam aq maen...-_-''
org len x dew lak nak sound2 bagai...-_-
NYAMPAH!~
w'slm
Sunday, February 19, 2012
him????....
ehm...ehm...assalamualaikum!~ :)
ari nie nak la cite sket kat diri sendiri sal..camne na bleh knal sorang senior yg anggap diri dye nie 'cool'..xD
hahaaha...na knal dye mase form 1 lagi~ knal pon sbb kadet...huh..ari tu kecik lagi otak pon x brape bleh waras lagi...tu yg dok pikir sal dy jerrr~ -_-''
alaa~ sume tu blaku pon coz EX-best friend yg x brape btol gak...^^
hahaha..ingt lagi sibok gile nak tau name dye sampai bleh jumpe fb dye lagi!!! hehee...excited la kate kan...xD
tp pape pon dye yg ckp ngan na dulu...(kat fb jerr)
hehee...dah kire ok la tu an???pfft...klakar la bile nak pikir balik....
setiap kali dye lalu berdekatan ngan klas kitorang..geng2 kitorg mesti heboh...yg kene nye na la sape lagi kannnn?... form 1 sampai la skarang name dye x penah na x dengar... hohoho..popular nyer dye dlm geng kitorg an...? hahaha...xD
hal ari jumaat...perkare yg x d sangke2...pfft... sy dah ade ramai abang la.... and he not deserve to call 'that' in my life...:) 'abang'??? euwww (dengan gedik segedik-gediknyer) xD
hahaha...anyway just with that, i can smile or you can say laugh out loud!! :D thanks for that senior of mine~ :3 k lah....dah nak buat keje len lak neh~
w'slm.... ^^
Thursday, January 19, 2012
awwwWWWW!!!
ingatkan episode dye dah abes..(senior) rupe2nyer ad lgi!! fuhh!!dye memang sengaje kuar lambat ke atau dye memang ade keje nak buat??hurm....nape klas na gak jdi tempat klab dye b'kumpul?? x phm btoi...-_-'' then petang td lak dye tetibe datang skolah...why??? mimpi pe sampai datang tuk kali yg PERTAME taun eh?? jeez~ i though i can get you off my mine... D: but it seem my friends keep ''helping'' me to let you be...! >< huh!! please go away!! tp an ari nie best sket...senior2 form 5 kat bilik sebelah klas na...dah bersuare...(sekurang2nyer) hahaha..sian dyorg an??kitorang dok wat bising...xD so sorry la!...we doesn't mean to do so... :p erm...i think i have to study hard from now on!! i MUST to!!! na x nak turun klas....(kalau bleh) i will try to do my best!!! NO MATTER WHAT! huh...nape la taun nie mesti datang??? mule2 na pikir...mungkin taun neh x la serious sangat...alaa..PMR je kowt??? but that guess of mine totally wrong!!! huhu...trok la nak kene ingt sume subject dari form 1 to form 3??? >< hurmm...but what can i do anyway??? just try my best is enough...rite?? but still i wanna grab straight A...for my family,teachers and my own good...hope everything go well...amin...
and tomorrow!! kitorg kan p penang!! hahaha...sempat lgi nak holiday dlm taun yg penting neh!! xD n kalo jdi..p langkawi skali..:D heheee..can't wait for tomorrow!!BUT i have to finish all my home work within this 9 days!!! waaa....!!!! ><
and tomorrow!! kitorg kan p penang!! hahaha...sempat lgi nak holiday dlm taun yg penting neh!! xD n kalo jdi..p langkawi skali..:D heheee..can't wait for tomorrow!!BUT i have to finish all my home work within this 9 days!!! waaa....!!!! ><
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
senior of mine...-_-
seriously!!! nape sume org nak lagi matching kan na ngan dye?? hurm...x bleh nak phm pikiran org...kalau la na ni psychic kan best...hehee...(menghrp) tp na x tau pon camne isu ni bleh timbul..haisshh! heran2...hahaha actually dari form 1 ag...xD
na just admire dye jew... why??coz walaupon dye gitu tp kawad kaki dye terer habis! bgi na la kan...mungkin sbb na x brape nak pandai kowt?? hahaha xD
scandal2 na memang ramai...whahaha!!! tp dyorng x penah ckp pon ngan na...:D haha...lgi trok!!dyorg x penah knal pon!! xD nak kate x penah jumpe..tipu la..coz skolah skali...pape pon scandal la sangat...*sigh* maybe dyorg x niat pape pon an..? maybe just for fun?? kekadang na trase la jgak...tp tetebi trase malu pon ade!! mcm la noon tdi...gile btol! dye ad dlm klas kitorang then kekawan na yg baik lgi cute neh...bleh plak nak kenekan na...wahh malu x terkate!! rase cam blushing yg berlebihan!!! xD panas rase muke...hadoii..dyorg neh...walau pape pon...>>>somebody have own me without he knowing<<< hehee..>///< sape la gak2 erk??? kyaaa~ (dengan nada gedik nyer..xD) tp sayang,.. dye terlalu jauh...baru skali datang malaysia...tp na x dapat langsung pluang nak jumpe dye...hurm...pe bleh buad an??k lah! x nak cite sal senior yg teragak 'cool' neh...haha...bye2..*slm*
and yeah...mulai dri post neh...na x nak gune 'aq' lgi...na kan gne 'na'...why?? because my family call me that..and i kind of love that nickname of mine...:D so...from now on!.... ^^ cya~
na just admire dye jew... why??coz walaupon dye gitu tp kawad kaki dye terer habis! bgi na la kan...mungkin sbb na x brape nak pandai kowt?? hahaha xD
scandal2 na memang ramai...whahaha!!! tp dyorng x penah ckp pon ngan na...:D haha...lgi trok!!dyorg x penah knal pon!! xD nak kate x penah jumpe..tipu la..coz skolah skali...pape pon scandal la sangat...*sigh* maybe dyorg x niat pape pon an..? maybe just for fun?? kekadang na trase la jgak...tp tetebi trase malu pon ade!! mcm la noon tdi...gile btol! dye ad dlm klas kitorang then kekawan na yg baik lgi cute neh...bleh plak nak kenekan na...wahh malu x terkate!! rase cam blushing yg berlebihan!!! xD panas rase muke...hadoii..dyorg neh...walau pape pon...>>>somebody have own me without he knowing<<< hehee..>///< sape la gak2 erk??? kyaaa~ (dengan nada gedik nyer..xD) tp sayang,.. dye terlalu jauh...baru skali datang malaysia...tp na x dapat langsung pluang nak jumpe dye...hurm...pe bleh buad an??k lah! x nak cite sal senior yg teragak 'cool' neh...haha...bye2..*slm*
and yeah...mulai dri post neh...na x nak gune 'aq' lgi...na kan gne 'na'...why?? because my family call me that..and i kind of love that nickname of mine...:D so...from now on!.... ^^ cya~
Thursday, December 08, 2011
FRUSTRATED!!!!! >:(
bengang!!!!! time aq maen lap...ade la yg sebok nak maen jgak!!! tagline mesti >>>meh aq gune kjap<<< klo kejap ko 10-30 minit x pew la gak aq bleh tunggu!!! neh 2-4 jam!!! jenuh aq nak tunggu!!! klo nak maen tu ckap la trang2!! aq bleh bagi!! janggan la bgi aq tunggu ko!! ble ko maen aq x de kacau pon an??? aq p makan mule la ko p kat lap!!! aq plak cam patung cendana nunggu ko siap!! ko maen x de pon aq kacau an?! wei! aq hormat ko cause ko abg aq!! aq appreciate ko cause bangak nolong aq! but can't you just leave me alone when i'm with the lap?!!! boring tau x?!!! kalo org len maen x jln plak tagline ko tu?!! pasal? rosak tetibe??! that's why...i DON'T nor WANT to believe anyone!! pe yg dyorg buat hanye MENYAKITKAN hati!!! if can...i don't want to be helped!!! so kalo aq buat korang trase x de la regret an??? B-O-D-O-H-!-!-!
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
H0lIdaY
yay!!!!! sok nak p KL~~ haha...happy neh!! tp harap2 4 ari nie x banjir je..klo x sian kat abg aq nak angkat sume barang2 naek atas~ hurm...mengharapkan ble p sane dpt la enjoy~ and leave all my problem behind!!! penat la nak pikir tu ni... erm...pastu de gak merancang lpas tu nak tengok buku2 form 3 tu~~ hahaha klo rajin ler... nak warp sume yg x warp agi..(klo de ler) erm..pe ag erk??
haaa!! smalam aq punye mimpi klaka giler!!! x penah nak mimpi cam gitu der! hahaha ade ke dye bleh jdi cousin aq??!! wow!! org star kot?! xD wat else???erm...boring la dok umah..xtau nak wat pape...
smalam rancang nak p bookstore nak bli comic banyak2!!! tp tu la..hujan plak yg x henti2...sigh~ nak sms org pon kredit bukan nyer banyak sangat...lyan fb pon kekadang boring gak...x tau pe ak buat!~ tp aq HAPPY giler mase liverpool menang mase lwn ngan chelshit ari tu!!! hahaha!! padan muke ex-player liverpool yg p sane!! tp aq happy jgak bleh tengok dye maen agi even though dye x pakai baju THE RED... :) aq harap sesangat dye balik liverpool plak pasni!!! :)) haha..anyway!! good luck la kat liverpool!! hrp x kalah ngan man. city~~ aq x kan miss nyer game yg neh!! so...nothing on my mind right now~~ daaaa~~ ^^
haaa!! smalam aq punye mimpi klaka giler!!! x penah nak mimpi cam gitu der! hahaha ade ke dye bleh jdi cousin aq??!! wow!! org star kot?! xD wat else???erm...boring la dok umah..xtau nak wat pape...
smalam rancang nak p bookstore nak bli comic banyak2!!! tp tu la..hujan plak yg x henti2...sigh~ nak sms org pon kredit bukan nyer banyak sangat...lyan fb pon kekadang boring gak...x tau pe ak buat!~ tp aq HAPPY giler mase liverpool menang mase lwn ngan chelshit ari tu!!! hahaha!! padan muke ex-player liverpool yg p sane!! tp aq happy jgak bleh tengok dye maen agi even though dye x pakai baju THE RED... :) aq harap sesangat dye balik liverpool plak pasni!!! :)) haha..anyway!! good luck la kat liverpool!! hrp x kalah ngan man. city~~ aq x kan miss nyer game yg neh!! so...nothing on my mind right now~~ daaaa~~ ^^
Friday, November 11, 2011
final EXAM???!!!
ughh!!!! LAME!!! just that in my mind!~ aq study bagai nak gile...then keputusan x leh wt a happy pon!! >< actually x tau result sebenar agi~ xD tp hrp gile dpt meningkat.....:(
aq xmo trun kls! nnti kene babbling lak! x sanggop neh!!~ result aq mesti cukup2 mkn jer....
sedey2...tu laa~ owang suh blaja ko men2...tengok pe jdi skang...-_-''
ramai bdak2 laki bleh marks tinggi2....bleh la dyorg gune skema! de otak pon simpan jer....
menyakitkan hati tul!!! so...dah abes idea daa~ out dlu nnti klo rjn tulis ag!~ dadaaa~~ :D
aq xmo trun kls! nnti kene babbling lak! x sanggop neh!!~ result aq mesti cukup2 mkn jer....
sedey2...tu laa~ owang suh blaja ko men2...tengok pe jdi skang...-_-''
ramai bdak2 laki bleh marks tinggi2....bleh la dyorg gune skema! de otak pon simpan jer....
menyakitkan hati tul!!! so...dah abes idea daa~ out dlu nnti klo rjn tulis ag!~ dadaaa~~ :D
Friday, October 14, 2011
october 13rd 2011
hari ni asenyer bleh dikatakan hari 'ber'sejarah kot??? hehe..first time tu amik pic ngan laki..even both of them just practical teacher...xD agi satu slh sorang dri diorg neh..bleh ckp aq ngan kwn aq ni identical twins?! pfft..it REALLY make me laugh! :D klaka giler...aq rase x pon coz kwn aq lgi cute per?? ^^ hurm..yg sdeh nyer..sir kitorg dah x ngaja kitorg dah... :( sedey~ but yesterday sir 'b' ask me to present a SPEECH!!what a joke?! >< tp yg aq buat bukan speech pon...aq rase dlm 2 ayat jer aq bagi~ yg penting nyer that speech must be in ENGLISH!~ xD x de idea pon time tu~ tp sir yg pilih aq tu x ngaja kotorg pon~ naseb baek bdak2 class x gelakkan aq~ -_-'' empat2 kwn2 aq bagi memorable card...yg penting buat sendiri tu~ yg lgi2 penting aq jdi mangse tuk lukis anime2 laki yg cute~ tp x pe...coz kekadang buat org happy best gak an?~ sir yg ngaja kitorg ckp kat aq...(lepas tengok lukisan aq tu) dye ckp ''troskan bkt melukis tu...mane tau satu ari nnti dpt jdi pelukis comic? tp buat la comic2 yg elok...'' alamak mase tu punye la terharu~ first time org puji aq sampai gitu skali!~ >< naseb x nangis jer tu~ skarang pon aq happy ngan kwn2 ''baru''...nak kwn ngan dye balik aq dah x hingin~ why??? coz aq sanggup mintak maaf even tu bukan slh aq...dye bleh buat bodoh jer? eiiii..klo adik aq dah lame mkn terajang! -_- skang aq slalu gak blk lewat...sian kat abg aq...kekadang tunggu sampai setengah jam neh!! cam td kul 3 kitorg dok agi kat bilik guru coz nak amik pic sir2 tu sume... even aq x suke amik pic diri aq...tp ari ni aq amik gak coz dah kene pakse~ tp xpe bleh wat kenang-kenangan ngan 2org sir tu an???:D agi 1 mase kitorg bgi card2 tu sume...ke-empat-empat diorg ckp good luck for exam...:) tp kalo luck sjer x bleh jln kot kalo x study?? xD pe gi erk?? erm...dah mlm dah neh...mate pon dah ngantok~ so bye2 my sweetheart... :D (i mean this diary of mine)
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