Assalamualaikum.
Dear Dark,
Right after I make that promise.. I broke it up right away--
I promise I wont shed tears for him ever again.. But when my heart say-- he's ignoring me right after he start the conversation hurts me a lot..
I cried.. Dark, I cried. Just a moment ago. I can still feel the warm of my tears.
How my breath felt like. I can still feel it all. :')
Why do he has to do that ? I didnt ask for him to start a conversation with this pitiful me. I didnt ask for it. But-- why he has to do this ?
Dark,
I cried too much.. Too much than I imagine. It feels like in one of those time when I was a little girl. When I cried for someone to understand the little me. SORROW. Just that in this pitiful girl's life, just that.
'' And it was rain in the bedroom when everything is wrong. Its rain when you here and its rain when youre gone. ''
That lyric keep spinning in my head. Yeah. Thats what he is to me now.
How sad--
I should have blocked you when you ask me to let go. I shouldnt have ask for us to still befriend. If I'd know it would turn out this way.. I wouldnt even approved your friend request... I wouldnt dare to do that.
Dark,
Why this thing happened to me ? My heart can bear this pain alone.. Its too hard. I cant holding on for too long.
I know maybe he's not the one for me. I know we arent meant to be. I know it all.
Pfft-- its not even real relationship. Im taking it too serious right ? Silly me. Im too stupid. Way way too stupid............
Monday, March 04, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MR. IDIOT ! :)
Dear Dark,
Assalamualaikum ~
It hasn't been too long right ? *chuckles*
Just today I get to use Mr. Lappy ~ Gomen ne.. I'd like to 'talk' to you everyday.. But it seems I'm too occupied with school and HOMEWORK of course. ==''
Dark,
Today.. It supposed to be a happy day to someone who's important to me. A day to celebrate. A day to laugh together. A day to have fun. But as for me, a day which is I'm about to cry. :')
About to cry, I repeat. *smiles sadly*
''Dear Mr. Idiot,
I wish you... A happy birthday.You're 19 years old now. Getting old, I see. I think I can move on from now. I pray, you and your family are good. Please smile. No matter what you do, face it with a smile. I'll be waiting for you... As a friend. Good luck in life. You're the best guy anyway. *chuckles* I hope everything you did will help you someday. Don't ever nagging when you couldn't do something. Instead, try your best to solve it. I know you tough. The toughest guy in my life. (not include my family) I know you brave enough. I know you're happy now. But I hope sometimes you will remember about me, too. Cause I'd love that to happen. :)
I will be there when you need someone. All you have to know is dont hesitate to come and talk to me about anything that bother you. Cause you're my friend. And I would like to help my friend as much as I can. *smiles*
I dont wanna say this words but I have to.. For this feeling I have for you, I have to erase it. And live my life.
. . . . Mr. Idiot, GOODBYE.
P/S : I LOVE YOU, MY FRIEND.
Assalamualaikum ~
It hasn't been too long right ? *chuckles*
Just today I get to use Mr. Lappy ~ Gomen ne.. I'd like to 'talk' to you everyday.. But it seems I'm too occupied with school and HOMEWORK of course. ==''
Dark,
Today.. It supposed to be a happy day to someone who's important to me. A day to celebrate. A day to laugh together. A day to have fun. But as for me, a day which is I'm about to cry. :')
About to cry, I repeat. *smiles sadly*
''Dear Mr. Idiot,
I wish you... A happy birthday.You're 19 years old now. Getting old, I see. I think I can move on from now. I pray, you and your family are good. Please smile. No matter what you do, face it with a smile. I'll be waiting for you... As a friend. Good luck in life. You're the best guy anyway. *chuckles* I hope everything you did will help you someday. Don't ever nagging when you couldn't do something. Instead, try your best to solve it. I know you tough. The toughest guy in my life. (not include my family) I know you brave enough. I know you're happy now. But I hope sometimes you will remember about me, too. Cause I'd love that to happen. :)
I will be there when you need someone. All you have to know is dont hesitate to come and talk to me about anything that bother you. Cause you're my friend. And I would like to help my friend as much as I can. *smiles*
I dont wanna say this words but I have to.. For this feeling I have for you, I have to erase it. And live my life.
. . . . Mr. Idiot, GOODBYE.
P/S : I LOVE YOU, MY FRIEND.
-Eve-
13:44, February 19th 2013''
Thats what I want to say to you. On this day. This moment. But I could do nothing. :')
My words can't seem to reach you. No one can help me to make it real. But I'd love you to read it. Really do.
Dark,
If you can reach him.. Can you say this words to him ?
'' I'm doing fine here. Even though, I cried a lot. But I'm trying to be stronger. Please support me wherever you are. Cause I need it. I have achieved one of my goals. And I promise you I will achieve others sooner. :)
When I have enough money. I will go to your country. (insya-Allah)
When I am there.. I hope I can meet you by chance. Maybe we're not going to talk because we dont know each other in real. But when that chances come.. I hope my heart beats real fast. So that I know-- that is the person I used to loved once. And still love as a friend. And when the time comes.. I want you to be happy with your own life. :) Maybe with your own family. *smiles gently*
If its really like that.. I bet that lady is really lucky to have you. To have your love, the way you cared and everything that you gave her. I'm sure of it. That lady is lucky. If by chance you will reactivate your account.. Please send me a message so that I know. :)
Haha.. Maybe you will make another account so that we dont have to make a conversation ever again. Am I right ? But I dont want to put it that way. :)
Mr. Idiot, I know.. Your girl-bestfriend didnt like me. I know it. She just act like she cared. Because of you. She really loves you, didnt she ? Pfft-- I dont care about that anyway. Didnt even care about her. But I really appreciate it. About all things that she had done.. Helps me about you, bad-mouthing me.. (maybe?) And everything. I really appreciate it. REALLY. :)
Be happy, honey. Be happy. :)
Gives everyone that warm smile of yours.
Dont worry about me. (I dont think you are.. )
I'll be fine. And I'll try not to cry ever again because of you. :)
Bye. ^^ ''
Dark.. Can you so it ? Reach him please. I really want him to know.. That I need an explanation. I need his '' goodbye '' . To move on. D':
Dark,
I'll be going now. See you around. *smiles slightly, about to burst out*
p/s : I love you... ( really want to hear that again )
Friday, February 08, 2013
Have you ever thought ?
Assalamualaikum ~ <3
Dear Dark,
HAPPY VERY BELATED NEW YEAR 2013 TO YOU !!!
Gomen ne ~ I thought so many time to say those thing to you but school took my time damn much ! =='' So.. Im sorry 'kay ?
Dark,
Today, I wanna confess something...
Lately.. They keep asking me 'Dont you want to talk to her again ?' (my EX- bestfriend)
You know what in my mind ?...
>>> DEAR GIRLS,
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, SHE MIGHT BACK STABBING ME. AGAIN ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, I MIGHT GET REALLY REALLY CLOSE TO HER AND START TO LEAVE YOU GIRLS A SIDE ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. WE MIGHT CANT BE LIKE WE'RE NOW BECAUSE OF HER ? <<<
That things always there in my mind. ALWAYS, I repeat. Its my choice right ? Do you really think I should befriend with her again ? Why ? Tell me WHY ? At least give me 5 REASONS for that. I dont understand why. I already forgive her and those 2 stupid girls a very long time ago. I didnt holding a grudge over them at all. Then, should Im the one who start the conversation again ? Huh.. You kidding me ? Im not that easy to deal with. I have heart, I have feeling. If you cant imagine for being in my place then KEEP YOUR FUCKING MOUTH SHUT ! I dont need any idea or you to lecture me ! I know well HOW MYSELF WORK !
And after all these days I forgive and tried to forget about she had done.. All she do these while is bad-mouthing me behind my back ? Im asking.. Did she really DESERVE MY APOLOGY ? Did she play the protagonist all these time and Im the antagonist ? Dont make a joke. I HAVE NEVER TELL THEM WHAT YOU DID TO ME. ALL THESE TIME. AND I GET IS THAT ? YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. :)
Dont make me talk to you face-to-face. Cause I dont know what I might do. Im not so good, you see.
Dark,
Why is it so hard for them to understand me ?... What a sad life-- *chuckles* Only him know if Im not fine. Right ? Even though.. He didnt know me in real life... Even though.. He didnt know in what tone am I speaking to him. He still know me well.. Even just for awhile.. He know whenever Im sad.. Im depressed.. Im happy.. He know it all.. So why cant do the same ?
Even though I act colder to him than them.. Just why ? D':
Its sad to think.. cause they know me longer. They know me in real life. But they cant understand me like he did... Its sad--
Dark,
I know its no use in telling you all this. But I feel better when I told you. :)
Thanks for being there my 'friend' . ^^ Love you so damn much ! cx
'kay ~ till we meet again. xDD
Wassalam. ;)
p/s : His b-day coming soon. Im drawing something for him. I will show you. :)
Happy belated new year to him, too. *smiles sadly*
Dear Dark,
HAPPY VERY BELATED NEW YEAR 2013 TO YOU !!!
Gomen ne ~ I thought so many time to say those thing to you but school took my time damn much ! =='' So.. Im sorry 'kay ?
Dark,
Today, I wanna confess something...
Lately.. They keep asking me 'Dont you want to talk to her again ?' (my EX- bestfriend)
You know what in my mind ?...
>>> DEAR GIRLS,
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, SHE MIGHT BACK STABBING ME. AGAIN ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. IF I GET CLOSE TO HER AGAIN, I MIGHT GET REALLY REALLY CLOSE TO HER AND START TO LEAVE YOU GIRLS A SIDE ? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT.. WE MIGHT CANT BE LIKE WE'RE NOW BECAUSE OF HER ? <<<
That things always there in my mind. ALWAYS, I repeat. Its my choice right ? Do you really think I should befriend with her again ? Why ? Tell me WHY ? At least give me 5 REASONS for that. I dont understand why. I already forgive her and those 2 stupid girls a very long time ago. I didnt holding a grudge over them at all. Then, should Im the one who start the conversation again ? Huh.. You kidding me ? Im not that easy to deal with. I have heart, I have feeling. If you cant imagine for being in my place then KEEP YOUR FUCKING MOUTH SHUT ! I dont need any idea or you to lecture me ! I know well HOW MYSELF WORK !
And after all these days I forgive and tried to forget about she had done.. All she do these while is bad-mouthing me behind my back ? Im asking.. Did she really DESERVE MY APOLOGY ? Did she play the protagonist all these time and Im the antagonist ? Dont make a joke. I HAVE NEVER TELL THEM WHAT YOU DID TO ME. ALL THESE TIME. AND I GET IS THAT ? YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. :)
Dont make me talk to you face-to-face. Cause I dont know what I might do. Im not so good, you see.
Dark,
Why is it so hard for them to understand me ?... What a sad life-- *chuckles* Only him know if Im not fine. Right ? Even though.. He didnt know me in real life... Even though.. He didnt know in what tone am I speaking to him. He still know me well.. Even just for awhile.. He know whenever Im sad.. Im depressed.. Im happy.. He know it all.. So why cant do the same ?
Even though I act colder to him than them.. Just why ? D':
Its sad to think.. cause they know me longer. They know me in real life. But they cant understand me like he did... Its sad--
Dark,
I know its no use in telling you all this. But I feel better when I told you. :)
Thanks for being there my 'friend' . ^^ Love you so damn much ! cx
'kay ~ till we meet again. xDD
Wassalam. ;)
p/s : His b-day coming soon. Im drawing something for him. I will show you. :)
Happy belated new year to him, too. *smiles sadly*
Monday, December 31, 2012
Another Beautiful Day
Assalamualaikum. (◕‿◕✿)
Dear Dark,
Today I went to school. For my registration. I laugh a lot today. And my friends seems to know that YOU no longer mine. I didnt hear anything about they asking me about you. :)
Perhaps they already know ? *chuckles*
Ah -- by the way... Yesterday I cried again. ^^'' I read something that give me a slight heart attack. I feel stupid. Really do. She doesnt have to update her status like that, does she ? Damn-- I take things seriously. ==''
Anyway, Im in first class again. Pure science. Add math. I'll be dead right ? But I think Im closer to my dream. :) To reach what I want. To fufill my dream. To go where I want. Find my real self. I think I can make it. With HIS help. I think I could. :)
I know its not easy. But I will try my best. Its my dream. My future. If I say I can make it thats mean I can ! Yeah ! Fight ! Fight !
Even though I still have 2 years to get what I want. I will try my hardest from the start. ^^
A-Level -- not easy. If I can get there. Means Im really close to my dream ! I will make it come true. With my own will, teachers, friends and my FAMILY support. :) I know they can help me to achieve what I want. ^^
Dark,
I'll try my hardest to forget that relationship too. So pray for me ? ^^'' Those sweet memories he gave me. I'll treasure it. :) I will.
Dark,
Just now.. I fooled a girl. A law student. Said Im a A-Level medical student. Is it bad ? To do that to her ?? Seems like we're in the same country. Duh -- did I do something wrong ? (◕︿◕✿)
Dear Dark,
Today I went to school. For my registration. I laugh a lot today. And my friends seems to know that YOU no longer mine. I didnt hear anything about they asking me about you. :)
Perhaps they already know ? *chuckles*
Ah -- by the way... Yesterday I cried again. ^^'' I read something that give me a slight heart attack. I feel stupid. Really do. She doesnt have to update her status like that, does she ? Damn-- I take things seriously. ==''
Anyway, Im in first class again. Pure science. Add math. I'll be dead right ? But I think Im closer to my dream. :) To reach what I want. To fufill my dream. To go where I want. Find my real self. I think I can make it. With HIS help. I think I could. :)
I know its not easy. But I will try my best. Its my dream. My future. If I say I can make it thats mean I can ! Yeah ! Fight ! Fight !
Even though I still have 2 years to get what I want. I will try my hardest from the start. ^^
A-Level -- not easy. If I can get there. Means Im really close to my dream ! I will make it come true. With my own will, teachers, friends and my FAMILY support. :) I know they can help me to achieve what I want. ^^
Dark,
I'll try my hardest to forget that relationship too. So pray for me ? ^^'' Those sweet memories he gave me. I'll treasure it. :) I will.
Dark,
Just now.. I fooled a girl. A law student. Said Im a A-Level medical student. Is it bad ? To do that to her ?? Seems like we're in the same country. Duh -- did I do something wrong ? (◕︿◕✿)
Im sorry sis ! ><'' Its for 'another' me shake !
Dear Dark,
School going to start another 2 days.. And I have flu with me-- SO FRUSTRATING !!!
(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ Geez-- But I'll be fine, I guess. *put the table back* ┬──┬ ノ( ゜-゜ノ)
And-- I have 'no friends' at all !!! We're not in the same class anymore !!! GAHHH !! *sob sob* Pity me -- And they all teasing me with my result from my 'not studying at all' LOL.. x'DD Its funny when they doesnt believe me when I said that. CAUSE THATS THE TRUTH. |'D
Its fine we can still study together in certain subjects though ~ <3 Fuuuu-- xD
'kay ~ Gtg now. LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS !
Assalamualaikum. (▰˘◡˘▰)
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Cant 'see' you anymore ?
Dear Dark,
Today.. I receive my long awaited result. Im happy that it is my target. IM REALLY GRATEFUL. Even though I cant be among the best. But Im glad cause I can stand on my own feet. Without cheating or whatsoever. ^^
Too bad for me. I cant seems to fulfill my promise I make to him. To tell him what my result is. *sigh* Even though he the one who give me most of the luck. Keep cheering me up. Said I will get what I want. Now ? How am I supposed to thanked you ? I never done anything to you beside hurting you. I cant evern cheer you up. I cant be there with you when you needed me the most. Useless am I ? ^^'' Maybe we cant talk anymore. But I wish we can. Someday. For sure. I will never forget you. EVER. You teach me a lot. *chuckles* I really owe you. I wish I can meet you face-to-face one day. And I will let you know how much I owe you. But can we meet someday ? Sounds impossible for the 'shy' me. PFFT---
I hope you can be strong. To faced your family problems. I hope you can make it. And come back to be my friends. I hope for that. :) I love you as my friends. I love as my lover. I love as my family.
Dark,
When I manage to make the first star (origami) I wrote his name on it. I made it my lucky charm. Its funny. Cause first time I can make it. Im so happy. And the only thing on my mind is him. I take a good care of it. When Im in the exams. I took the star with me. Every single day. It make me believe I can make it. Its feel like youre rooting for me all the time. It feels like youre the watching me. Waiting beside me. And today-- When I want to get my result I take my star with me. I holds it in my hand. It give me hope that it will be okay. And yeah. Everything is fine. :) Im glad youre 'there' for me. Accompany me till the end. Youre the best thing I ever know. Youre important to me. Youre also special in my heart. I really hope we're in the same country. Cause it can make us exchange phone number. Will be able to hear your voice. Maybe see your face ? xD
Anything happened I hope you'll be fine. Cause I know youre the strongest person I ever known. I will keep you in my mind and heart. :)
I love you. I love you and I love you. ^^ And I will missed you so fucking damn much !
P/S : I'll be waiting for your come back. :)
Today.. I receive my long awaited result. Im happy that it is my target. IM REALLY GRATEFUL. Even though I cant be among the best. But Im glad cause I can stand on my own feet. Without cheating or whatsoever. ^^
Too bad for me. I cant seems to fulfill my promise I make to him. To tell him what my result is. *sigh* Even though he the one who give me most of the luck. Keep cheering me up. Said I will get what I want. Now ? How am I supposed to thanked you ? I never done anything to you beside hurting you. I cant evern cheer you up. I cant be there with you when you needed me the most. Useless am I ? ^^'' Maybe we cant talk anymore. But I wish we can. Someday. For sure. I will never forget you. EVER. You teach me a lot. *chuckles* I really owe you. I wish I can meet you face-to-face one day. And I will let you know how much I owe you. But can we meet someday ? Sounds impossible for the 'shy' me. PFFT---
I hope you can be strong. To faced your family problems. I hope you can make it. And come back to be my friends. I hope for that. :) I love you as my friends. I love as my lover. I love as my family.
Dark,
When I manage to make the first star (origami) I wrote his name on it. I made it my lucky charm. Its funny. Cause first time I can make it. Im so happy. And the only thing on my mind is him. I take a good care of it. When Im in the exams. I took the star with me. Every single day. It make me believe I can make it. Its feel like youre rooting for me all the time. It feels like youre the watching me. Waiting beside me. And today-- When I want to get my result I take my star with me. I holds it in my hand. It give me hope that it will be okay. And yeah. Everything is fine. :) Im glad youre 'there' for me. Accompany me till the end. Youre the best thing I ever know. Youre important to me. Youre also special in my heart. I really hope we're in the same country. Cause it can make us exchange phone number. Will be able to hear your voice. Maybe see your face ? xD
Anything happened I hope you'll be fine. Cause I know youre the strongest person I ever known. I will keep you in my mind and heart. :)
I love you. I love you and I love you. ^^ And I will missed you so fucking damn much !
P/S : I'll be waiting for your come back. :)
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
MY CONFESSION
Dear Dark,
Yesterday.. When I realised-- he deactivate his account. (current one) Now.. How am I supposed to full filled my promises ? I thought tomorrow I can tell him my long awaited result. (PMR) I wanna tell him what my result is. Because he accompany me every single night during my night classes. He make me feel at ease saying I can make it well. Now-- What am I supposed to do ? I cant tell him. Facebook the only way I can talk to him. I have no other way. What am I supposed to do ? He reply to my message yesterday. But I didnt think it would be the last one. I even act cold toward him. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ???
Dark,
I cried last night. Sadly to say. Again. I. Burst. Into. Tears. I thought I will be fine. But Im not fine at all. I really fall in love with him. And I thought I couldnt fall in love again after 'that guy'. But he opened up my heart. He make me break the wall around me. I owe him a lot ! Then why did he left just like that ? Breaking his own promises. I know this is just social-network relationship but-- I do take it seriously. Way way too serious. I need you. Even though youre not mine. I need you the most right now. I know I hurt you a lot. But thats me being childish. I love you in my own selfish way. Why cant you see ? :'c
I want you so badly. When you confessed I was damn happy. So happy and I cant think about anything at all. Hopeless. Thats what I am right now. I missed you called me 'Eve'. No one gonna called me with that name again-- No one. No one can get me like you did. No one can make me laugh, smile, sad, annoyed, flustered-- Like you did. No one.
Gawd-- Now I want to cry again. More importantly, you make me cry more than 'that guy' can make me. Thats show how much I cared. I missed you. I miss you. I'll miss you. There's no way I can get rid of this feeling. Why cant you see right through me right now ? That you the one who I need the most ? I need you. I need you. I NEED YOU !
I know your break up reason-- Not your real reason. I wanna know the truth. Why wont you tell me the truth ? I.. I need to know them. From the start-- You didnt even cared to tell me something important to you. That passed away relative. That bad cough of yours. That exam you will faced on the same week as mine. Your work.
Yeah. I know them now at least. But-- Im tired of being last to know. Am I that important to you before ? Do you really care ? You always. Always leave without a sign during our conversation. You always make me wait. Leave me hanging up-- thinking what possible. You make your own conclusion whenever we fight. Youre impatient. Youre forceful sometimes. You being cold toward me. You way way too flirty with those girls and make me jealous. But I never told you.. I did. Your winking emotion [ ;) ] I like the most. Your naughty thought. Your dare. You being serious. You being childish. The mature you. Your single ' Hey ' make me smiling. (sometimes I laughing alone like an idiot) YOUR EVERYTHING. I LOVE THEM ALL. ALL OF THEM. ALL OF THEM. I dont care to wait for you. Because I know you will come to me. Just like yesterday. I know you will came to me. But I woke up way too late. I regret it. I dont care you make me sad. Because I know you will make me smile soon after that. I love you. I really do. I really do---
Im scared to lose something precious. I told you. Now I lose my precious thing. What am I supposed to do ? Its hard for me. Too hard. No one can make me smile right now. Besides, you. No one-- Ah-- ! Just if you can read this post of mine. I bet you will understand why I needed you the most...
I am cold toward you because if I dont I will easily falling even harder for you. I have to faced this problem alone. I cant involve anyone with this. :)
I have to be strong. But still I wont give up on US. Even there's no ''us'' anymore.
P/S : I still love you. And I will always do.
Yesterday.. When I realised-- he deactivate his account. (current one) Now.. How am I supposed to full filled my promises ? I thought tomorrow I can tell him my long awaited result. (PMR) I wanna tell him what my result is. Because he accompany me every single night during my night classes. He make me feel at ease saying I can make it well. Now-- What am I supposed to do ? I cant tell him. Facebook the only way I can talk to him. I have no other way. What am I supposed to do ? He reply to my message yesterday. But I didnt think it would be the last one. I even act cold toward him. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ???
Dark,
I cried last night. Sadly to say. Again. I. Burst. Into. Tears. I thought I will be fine. But Im not fine at all. I really fall in love with him. And I thought I couldnt fall in love again after 'that guy'. But he opened up my heart. He make me break the wall around me. I owe him a lot ! Then why did he left just like that ? Breaking his own promises. I know this is just social-network relationship but-- I do take it seriously. Way way too serious. I need you. Even though youre not mine. I need you the most right now. I know I hurt you a lot. But thats me being childish. I love you in my own selfish way. Why cant you see ? :'c
I want you so badly. When you confessed I was damn happy. So happy and I cant think about anything at all. Hopeless. Thats what I am right now. I missed you called me 'Eve'. No one gonna called me with that name again-- No one. No one can get me like you did. No one can make me laugh, smile, sad, annoyed, flustered-- Like you did. No one.
Gawd-- Now I want to cry again. More importantly, you make me cry more than 'that guy' can make me. Thats show how much I cared. I missed you. I miss you. I'll miss you. There's no way I can get rid of this feeling. Why cant you see right through me right now ? That you the one who I need the most ? I need you. I need you. I NEED YOU !
I know your break up reason-- Not your real reason. I wanna know the truth. Why wont you tell me the truth ? I.. I need to know them. From the start-- You didnt even cared to tell me something important to you. That passed away relative. That bad cough of yours. That exam you will faced on the same week as mine. Your work.
Yeah. I know them now at least. But-- Im tired of being last to know. Am I that important to you before ? Do you really care ? You always. Always leave without a sign during our conversation. You always make me wait. Leave me hanging up-- thinking what possible. You make your own conclusion whenever we fight. Youre impatient. Youre forceful sometimes. You being cold toward me. You way way too flirty with those girls and make me jealous. But I never told you.. I did. Your winking emotion [ ;) ] I like the most. Your naughty thought. Your dare. You being serious. You being childish. The mature you. Your single ' Hey ' make me smiling. (sometimes I laughing alone like an idiot) YOUR EVERYTHING. I LOVE THEM ALL. ALL OF THEM. ALL OF THEM. I dont care to wait for you. Because I know you will come to me. Just like yesterday. I know you will came to me. But I woke up way too late. I regret it. I dont care you make me sad. Because I know you will make me smile soon after that. I love you. I really do. I really do---
Im scared to lose something precious. I told you. Now I lose my precious thing. What am I supposed to do ? Its hard for me. Too hard. No one can make me smile right now. Besides, you. No one-- Ah-- ! Just if you can read this post of mine. I bet you will understand why I needed you the most...
I am cold toward you because if I dont I will easily falling even harder for you. I have to faced this problem alone. I cant involve anyone with this. :)
I have to be strong. But still I wont give up on US. Even there's no ''us'' anymore.
P/S : I still love you. And I will always do.
Monday, December 03, 2012
Broken Hearted---??
Dear Dark,
It's been a damn long time doesnt it???
Dont you miss me damn much~? Hhe~ I miss you so. ^^
So today.. After a very long time I confessed something to you. I will make a confession about someone. Yeah.. Someone. :)
Precious enough for me to write about him here. But I know he will never read it though ! *chuckles* Confident enough right? xD
Dear Mr. Vampy,
Okay ! Confession time end here ! ^^
I will move on. And try my hardest to let go.
Thank you.
It's been a damn long time doesnt it???
Dont you miss me damn much~? Hhe~ I miss you so. ^^
So today.. After a very long time I confessed something to you. I will make a confession about someone. Yeah.. Someone. :)
Precious enough for me to write about him here. But I know he will never read it though ! *chuckles* Confident enough right? xD
Dear Mr. Vampy,
I cant let go so easily.. Im drowning cant you see? I've so much fun with you..so much fun-- youre cruel.. After saying Im not going to lose you.. You leave me out. Its hurt. Too cruel-- -smiles- I know youre not going to read this thats why i sent it here cause I dont want you to feel sorry for me. I love you-- even though its not the same as my love for him.. I still love you though. You can make my day. You can make me forgot bout him.. Even just for a while. Im glad I've met you. ^^ but still youre too cruel.. I know youre still lonely and bored whenever Im around. Im not fun at all-- I know. Actually, Im pretty cold with everyone. Even my friends. No one can easily break the ice between us. But you did a little~! At least. ^^
I will move on. And try my hardest to let go.
Thank you.
p/s : If you ever read this.. Just pretend you dont. But I dont think you will read though~
Byebee.. ^^
Byebee.. ^^
One more thing-- my nonchalant.. Only you, him and my people who close enough know it. ^^ and there's always a reason why.. every time I become like that.
Dear Dark,
Hohoho~ When I have times-- I will share something more interesting with you ! Hehee~ You will wait for me right?? Nah-- Youre my always understanding 'friend'. ^^
Oh yeah ! This morning I throw up. And caught a damn cold. My head all dizzy and feels damn heavy~! =='' Geez~ why should I write it?? No one cares, right? Ahahaha~
Now, now~ I take my leave. I will come again, okay? ^^ Love you both. :)
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