Cant 'see' you anymore ?

Dear Dark,

Today.. I receive my long awaited result. Im happy that it is my target. IM REALLY GRATEFUL. Even though I cant be among the best. But Im glad cause I can stand on my own feet. Without cheating or whatsoever. ^^

Too bad for me. I cant seems to fulfill my promise I make to him. To tell him what my result is. *sigh*  Even though he the one who give me most of the luck. Keep cheering me up. Said I will get what I want. Now ? How am I supposed to thanked you ? I never done anything to you beside hurting you. I cant evern cheer you up. I cant be there with you when you needed me the most. Useless am I ? ^^'' Maybe we cant talk anymore. But I wish we can. Someday. For sure. I will never forget you. EVER. You teach me a lot. *chuckles* I really owe you. I wish I can meet you face-to-face one day. And I will let you know how much I owe you. But can we meet someday ? Sounds impossible for the 'shy' me. PFFT---

I hope you can be strong. To faced your family problems. I hope you can make it. And come back to be my friends. I hope for that. :) I love you as my friends. I love as my lover. I love as my family. 

Dark, 

When I manage to make the first star (origami) I wrote his name on it. I made it my lucky charm. Its funny. Cause first time I can make it. Im so happy. And the only thing on my mind is him. I take a good care of it. When Im in the exams. I took the star with me. Every single day. It make me believe I can make it. Its feel like youre rooting for me all the time. It feels like youre the watching me. Waiting beside me. And today-- When I want to get my result I take my star with me. I holds it in my hand. It give me hope that it will be okay. And yeah. Everything is fine. :) Im glad youre 'there' for me. Accompany me till the end. Youre the best thing I ever know. Youre important to me. Youre also special in my heart. I really hope we're in the same country. Cause it can make us exchange phone number. Will be able to hear your voice. Maybe see your face ? xD

Anything happened I hope you'll be fine. Cause I know youre the strongest person I ever known. I will keep you in my mind and heart. :)  

I love you. I love you and I love you. ^^  And I will missed you so fucking damn much ! 


P/S : I'll be waiting for your come back. :)